私は知っている

2011-12-18T03:10:00.001-08:00

2011-12-09T09:44:00.000-08:00

2 down.
Statistics & MicroEconomics, I'll conquer you :)

Took cab to exam place & today I tried taking bus & fuck, 20 minutes before my accounting paper I ended up at ZOUK. & no cab insight, scare the shit out of me. Shall take bus on Mon.

Nevertheless I love school? I never loved school so much ever since Poly? But I still hang out with beloved RMIT mates, & after 8 months of culinery, I finally realised what I really wanted.

Any Regret? Waste of Money? Waste of time?

often people probed along this line

& I shall hereby declare that I love school, love my current fun clique & I am much happier than before (not comparing to poly thou). I eat/sleep/rot, & I GOT NO LESSONS ON EVERY MONDAY?

What more can I asked for?

Yes, it's stress, to be honest, I find it relatively challenging at Newcastle University than Rmit. Oh well, next sem I have an elective, I am so gonna choose Tourism for fun sake. & prays hard I can get exemption for Principals of Marketing. IMAGINE 3 days of school? aww~ For just 12 weeks la.

SHIT LA, I got lazy disease influenced by Miao.

& when I have the time on weekends, I meet up with my BFFS & poly clique :D

To be honest, it's not easy for me to keep switching uni. It's not. Not only I had to face lots of shit & also idk if I could adapt well? Or what if I can't make it again? I had to face so many many remarks & people kept asking.

You think I want keep change school mehhhh?

But nevertheless, I wanna thank my parents for supporting me. No questions, no doubts.

Maybe you may judge me for who I am, I don't care if the degree I am pursuing is as prestigeous as ur local uni. shit, I AM HAPPY :)

I SHALL CHIONGGGG MY 2 papers how. BABY LET ME SCORE.

o.o & baby called the police at my house carpark because of a super scary guy. yuck.

Shall rot & watch tvb drama next weekend because I realised I didn't rot with my bf before in the past two years. wtf. All we did was shopping, eat, movie or go have stroll at park. & I need to go gym at his place ^^

This weekend gonna public everywhere because it had been months since we public. Love it when we can listen to music & share ear piece while taking bus :) He is complaining that I am lazy & he is spoilting me. fuggggggggg.

I saw a chipmunk pillow today :(

c: You want?

Me: It's okay.

C: walks away*

Me: fugggggggggggggggg* in my heart.

major update soonish. photos in my cammmmmerrrerrrrrrrr. btw, thanks miao, for being there again. I promised to give her extra present for her birthday on Jan! whahahahha.

Hoped I can booked my flight to HK tmr. After looking at those flight prices, I think I had been taking things for granted. I looked at the usual cathay pacific airline just now & realised I couldn't afford it. & in my life, besides bkk, I didn't seat budget airline before because parents was marco polo club members. fugggg.

& I realised I had to queue for immigration?

Where if I follow my parents we are in special lane for frequent flyers so we don't have to queue. fugggggg.

I wanted to stay at disney hotel because I went twice before.

& when I checked, it was 380 SGD/night. fuggggggg. I cannot afford again.

I thought going overseas was as easy as ABC until I realised. . it's my parents who gave me this luxury that I took things for granted. I fly every year, but this year I have decided to not fly because of boy.

I still blames my Mum for not buying Prada wallet for me because she said she only buys me Japanese imported vivi & anna sui perfume. OK. fugggg. I must work & use my own money to go Hongkong.

I WILL BE WORKING DURING MY HOLIDAYS & USE MY OWN MONEY :)

I will work my ass off this holiday :) if i got no money I shall go other places within my budget. heeheee.

GROW UP, van.

2011-12-02T02:29:00.000-08:00

ペパーミント Papermint

Exams.
6 weeks to bkk shopping

will be back with my skincare products reviews & pictures as I feels that my skin is fairly good now. Like finally, after 1.5years of struggling. Did facial for my boy last week because I have loads of products on hand with shoulder massage using exfolating minty cream.

Going to have bbq w my classmates after exams, can't wait. I really love school yo. I am trying out volka jello prolly in peach /coke/blueberry pops. & everyone is bringing their another half except mine :C But still, will leave some jello for him.

Thanks to miao, I adore chiffon & had been online shopping for chiffon-laced top adding a touch of feminity to myself. Time flies & I am turning twenty two in 2 months time. Hinted boy that I want a trip to HK during april as pressie :) & & he really did start saving? So touched*

& HIS ORD IN AROUND 6 months after my birthday? OMG?

& he promised me a trip because I waited for him! He said either Aussie/Japan? OMG. Getting real excited for 2012 :) Looking forward to yr 21st tmr, gonna see polymates & catch up with them.

W love,
Vanessa

2011-11-13T05:59:00.000-08:00

一緒にもう一度; 无数回忆连结

I am going to rewatch this movie again. Seriously, it's so nice that I can't stop thinking about every single details of the story. This movie is based on true story. Twins went to watch it & she cried till her eyes swollen. I know right.

沈佳宜：“谢谢你喜欢我。”

柯景腾：“我也很喜欢当年那个喜欢你的我。”

——《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》

(cried like shit when this part was playing)

pretty much.

分手，只需要一个人同意，但“在一起”，可是需要两个人同时认可才能作数。恋爱就是要这么不确定才有趣，不是吗？至少我已经完成了我这一半的拼图

Double Date w Tricia & Grayson :D

I BE BACK WITH MORE PREETY PHOTOS

13.11.11

Look at both of our gangster boyfriend.
Before army, their hairstyle is kam tau kam bin one pls.

Baby Boy taught me how to kayak.

Love my romper in Bubblegum Poppy Green :D

I didn't edit my photos btw.
I realised I am loving block/bubblegum colours.

Hair tied by my boy.
(I removed all my ear piercing :D Crazy me even removed my tragus pierce. Mad)

From 4 piercing at my right ear, I close all of it and kept the one at my ear lope.

Thanks for pushing my bicycle up the slope and encourage me when I didn't dare to ride my bicycle down the steep slope given the harsh condition of rain.

Trying out my iphone app.

My hair was curled by boy also. He was good at this, idk why.

I called boy ytd & I cried because I made a mess at my house.

I burnt my brother's golf clothes while ironing because my steamer was leaking steam, and mind you, note the temperature when I say steam, I caused the recycle bag to burn down & SPOILT THE WHOLE IRON.

I made a huge mess & called my bf. He drove down & calm me down because I was crying?!

Caused I scalded my hand.

Faints*

Lucky Jason didn't blame me but bought a new iron. HEEHEE.

&&& my mum called me at 2.30am ytd to teach me how to cook longan tea. Cute or what.

I hope everything is fine? We are still working on our r.s :) I shall leave it to fate. But as long as he is trying, I am staying. Btw I cooked

CHICKEN + PORK RIBS + PORK BONE +MUSHROOM+ DRIED ABALONE + DRIED SCALLOP SOUP FOR HIM!

NO msg!

Minimal salt

SHOIKKKKK OKAY!
I simmered for 5 hours. #nojoke

Actually I have been cooking soup recently :)

Actually I don't really care if my bf is rich anot, I just want a guy who really accept who I am & accept my temper. I am horrible at times, I know. Told Bro Sheng about it & he said I got no temper or sth like that. I think he need to see my true colours. OMG LOL.

I shall go sleep & promised a major update w preety photos.

Chloe 21st Black & White Affair was great. I love my RMIT mates! Gossip & Bitch with the girls while our two bffs guy peeled prawn for us & kept taking food for us. OMG, felt so love.

Me: I want boh boh char char!

K: Okay I go take you all gossip.

Me: Eh, sago like abit only.

K: Okay okay, I go scoop more sago for you at the bottom.

OMG! I love my rmit mates can! Super nice la. Why I so stupid go quit RMIT & join culinery. fml.

I hope you guys have a nice weekend :)

W LOVE,
Vanessa

2011-11-07T06:46:00.000-08:00

那些年，我們一起追的女孩;私の目のリンゴ

Watched this movie last night & I teared like mad. Full ratings no doubt. It's really worth the watch! I decided to watch this movie after watching the interview that they actually went to a movie award ceremony at Japan, it's that good you see. & the event was international. C kept wiping tears for me.

Initially I was listening to J new songs & i switched to their osf.

Seriously, I wonder which guy would do all these for me. Twins! Go watch it! Prepare tissue don't say I nvr warn.

好想告诉你　告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定

& this movie ticket box rating is higher than Monga! U go imagine.

Nice baby send me to work & picked me up after I had supper w Cecilia, Esther, (they so sweet take mrt all the way from Jurong & I thought their bf fetch but I was wrong, super sweet) Aud and Tiffany. He still go cook brown super ginger for me :D TY. Cause I am dying of cramps you see.

ありがとう boy. chu. chu.

那些年错过的爱情
メモリ

Bento I made. Beef & Honey Baked Wings. I had a hard time going into C's carpark because I got no card to his house.

I stand beside his car*

Me: Eh where you ah? Coming out to fetch me already not?

Him: Yes I am in car already

Me: Yea right, u gonna be so DEAD!

after two minutes*

Him: Came down and super shocked/surprised/chua sai.

LOL, I think I am an awesome girlfriend. .

I zhinged my phone until like this.
Total damaged less than $50 :)

C found hello kitty shop at thomson, he said Friday bring me go. HEEHEE. Btw I had flea on Saturday, nearly fainted because I am having bad cramps :( So bad that I don't have the mood to go shop around, but I got myself 2 bubblegum colour belt.

I am a belt fetish now also :)

Theres a belt brand new which I bought at BKK.

I am selling at $5.

Bitch: $1 can?

I immediately ROLLED MY EYES AT HER N SNATCHED BACK MY BELT. I RATHER NOT SELL. Fucking bitch. Just wanna slapped u. So cheap skate don't shop leh. I cannot stand super super duper cheap skate people. I mean, bargain is okay, but $1? I throw it on ur fuck face.

& so many owners rolled their eyes at us? LOL. Cause df selling their brand new apparels at less than 10 bucks and it's super cho that kind. & we selling those unwanted clothes at $2 so all the people jam at our stall? & I am busy till I cannot breathe*

& the thing is, other owners was ROLLING THEIR FUCKING EYES at us and we saw that, there's a guy who " HO SEH BOH" back at us. KNN la. Cannot earn and fight with us it's your problem sia. Go get a china supplier who supplies at low rate with cho clothes lah. I can feel the tension but we don't care.

Customer jammed at our stall and caused blockage not my problem leh.

No customers at u guys stalls cannot blame us leh. Blame on the price strategy lor, see you can fight with us anot lor. & all the Bags ALL SOLD OUT :)

SO funny la, those jealous guys only made us laugh more.

Thanks Miao for always being there for me :) So much happened this few weeks. I am going crazy. Btw my mid term test like still not up to my expectation. I didnt get all Distinction. I need to work hard for my final exam. I really hope I can get all Distinction. I need toハード動作.

Thanks C for going through this period with me. I am going thru a period whereby everything looks so negative. Thanks for holding my hand and guiding me through in life. I don't know if me and c could break thru this hurdle anot, but I know we are fighting hard.

I had a wierd dream sometime this week. Really wierd. Miao still go interprete the dream for me & I did research. Seriously, my thoughts are like that? I really dk. I just feel so negative now la.

Hope everything will work out between me & c.

Hope will be able to go supper with my freshkon girls.

WITH LOVE,
Vanessa

2011-11-02T07:00:00.000-07:00

Goodbye memories
さようなら
I lost you on the day I broke thy trust isn't it? C:
Can't fight anymore, but still, it's my happiest relationship.
May you be 幸せ without me

xoxo,
QF
I will love u dearly and always will.

P.S: time to find myself back and occupy myself w parties. shall party like a rockstar :)

2011-10-30T10:02:00.000-07:00

リンゴ; APPLE

あなたを失う
He has no enemies, but is intensely disliked by his friends
Don’t be humble. You’re not that great
C:

Great week. was w bbg at starbucks till 4.30am in the morning spells love. Zhinged my phone and now it's damn girly with ribbon ear-cap, mad love* Initially buying ribbon ear cap for darling but I bought the angry bird for him instead.

Some motherfucks tried to spoil my night but oh well, I wasn't really that affected anymore because darling simply asked me to ignore. Sorry I just can't help but to feel sad for somebody who need to quote my blog post and CORRECT my error on facebook.

LOL. What a joke?

Am I going to be future Vogue editor?

Erm, clears throat* This is a space for my rants & my diary, omg, do I have to send it to any college or Harvard University for grading? Sadly no :) Oh my dear, I forgot I wasn't allowed to make any grammar and vocab errors on

TWINNIESARELOVE.BLOGSPOT.COM

Oh well,I thought i had seen the pinnacle of stupid…. then i met you. LOL. My error is such such such a ultra mega huge one that somebody don't even allow room for errors on TWINNIESARELOVE? Seriously what a joke?

Oh, thanks for even saying you were just merely trying to correct me?

errr. But correct what?

I can't help but to laugh.

SO. excuse mua? You are correcting my errors ON MY BLOG? Emphasize my blog*, sorry, can't see? MY BLOG.

Omg, am I submitting my diary for grading in such a way that no mistakes are tolerated?

awww. I dunch know that.

Thanks for letting me know. But I am still gonna write with broken english. AHH HUH?

LOL. Oh oh, maybe I don't even deserve to get my degree. Oh my god, I dunch know I am required to even write professionally on this little space of mine. So when have TWINNIESARELOVE become an academic paper?

No worries loves ones, I would invest in a good dictionary, omg, forgot, must be oxford version 11, publish in capetown 2003 :) I will get that because I simply have the vitamin M. & I dunch know to make a good investment in a business I MUST get an Oxford dictionary :)

oh well, I talk and speak like that.

I be waiting for a lawyer letter or sth because I TALKED LIKE THAT.

Sorry, my apologies, I don't mean to flaunt anything but I am just stating an example. Oh god, I am from "this kind of calibre family". Don't worry for me, my parents is providing for me and if nobody hires me or I went bankrupt dued to poor investment, I guess I still have my parents to support me? LOL, so what if I am good-for-nothing because at least I can choose to be

GOOD-FOR-NOTHING

It doesn't change the fact dude. Try harder.

LOL. Can't even blogged about barbaric parents now. Oh, so who admitted his/her parents are barbaric? LOL. U guys should know the answer now I guessed (:

Oh and somebody asked me to " BRING IT ON", omg, bring it on what? Sorry, I don't have barbaric parents to haunt every single one of my friends nor do my parents suffered from great depression. Omg, I really got nothing to BRING IT ON :( What should I do? I only have got super doting parents who forever-are-spoiling-me. Can I bring that on to you?

Bygones are Bygones, of course. So in the first place why are you reading this little space of mine?

Actually from the day I blogged, I know I can't make everyone happy :) So if you don't like me, there's a cross at the top right hand corner of your screen dude :) Click on that*

I offended alot of people but I aren't sure why do I still have so many love ones out there who love me for who I am. LOL. So now you are telling me I can't even pen down my thoughts on TWINNIESARELOVE because I am bringing up the past.

OMG, I don't even know I was forbidden to even bring up the past writing about barbaric parents. Thanks for even copy & paste my words & thanks for the effort in correcting TWINNIESARELOVE, I may credit you on the sidebar one day.

Thanks for the attention & please don't ask me cool down if you barely talk to me in real life. ARIGATO ^^

I am prepared for anything just bring it on; barbaric parents

fuck.off. are way to elegant to describe nobody.

Happy week.
School starts tmr :)

I love my Mr c :) Clement Heng you better wait for me to wear pampers for you when you turned 80! I want to watch 11.59 with him and I wants to cook soup for him :( I bet he must be tired from training.

Love,
Vanessa

2011-10-29T02:03:00.000-07:00

I admire those who save, but I worship those who can earn

(photo not me, don't judge)

Oh well, as I am studying Economics, within the next 10 years, the richer will get richer and the poorer will get poorer. The gap is increasing and out of 10 people 1 will be millionaire. So what does that indicate? Seriously, I do respect professionals with phd, but sadly, I don't really give a shit on levels of education (:

But I do work hard for my degree. Education is a stepping stone but who can guarantees your performances? Oh well, twins & me is finding an apartment within the next 12 months, and I am going to use my own money to set up our own company. Saw one which is at PayaLebar which caught my eyes.

Actually twins & me had quite a number of similar ideas and she is a interior designer now and I am pursuing my marketing degree. So we are going to furnish our place. I am not going to leak out any info. to my family because I don't need help from Dad. & of course, how could our place do without ribbons & paris tower? lol.

I will work hard to save up to 5 digits. It's not bullshit anymore, I am 21 and I must earn my first bucket of gold by 25. I love studio apartment (: Oh well, don't judge if you do not know our plans.

& as for twitter, seriously, if i don't really know you please zi dong abit and don't follow me because I am starting to dislike you more and more. In fb your stupid lameshit status always filled my newsfeed and your stupid tweets kept appearing on my timeline. Fuck aye. If you didn't follow me I don't even wanna accept. Keep guessing, but certainly not my Poly classmates, not freshkon girls, not bffs, not rmit mates, do the minusing and see whose the extra.

Please stop posting lame status because it's major turn off aye [:

You want to shit, please shit on your own face don't tell me.

Btw this holiday is coming to an end. I survived this week. Of course, there will be more hurdles to my love life but I knew C wants me to fight for him :) LOL. Seriously I don't expect things to turn out this way. May you feel I can't give him happiness, but in the first place have you gone through what I need to go through?

NO (:

If he could meet better girls and if another girl could do as much as I did for C, I will leave him, no doubt, but if no other girls can do this much, I feel I need to fight for him. I won't give up unless C himself told me he doesn't love me.

Yes, I am blinded by love. Yes I am immature, but will we stay immature forever? I guessed no? Sorry I don't mean to offend anyone, I still respect for who you are but I feel certain remarks aren't fair to me after going through so much with C. I won't made C sandwiched in between nor create any trouble because thats not me.

MY POINT IS: I WILL FIGHT TILL THE END (:

Maybe you can't accept my character? But nobody is perfect.
Maybe I am not good enough for c? So how perfect you want his girl to be?

I believe I won't see wrong guy this time. Mikitty no balls to fight for me, but Clement will fight for me. Lets wait and see.

But because of the hurtful remarks, I would treat C much better, love C more and cherished C more. Thanks for the advice because I don't accept. Sorry if I am oversensitive because I am still trumatised and haunted by my previous relationship, meeting barbaric aging adult.

AND I swear to myself I would not let another person interfere with mine love life. It's either I leave him forever or I give it all. You did affect me with your words so I didn't reply the last msg, but still, one day, you would accept me for who I am because I am going to be a better person and rock on.

Sorry if you don't like my attitude. I don't need you to like me because I still have alot that loves me for who I am.

CHEERS,
ssa!

AND SERIOUSLY SOME APARTMENT ARE JUST SO OLD AND NOT FIT FOR HUMAN STAY! I hope they won't pissed me off because I might just fucking threw all those old fashioned furnitures away. I just need a place unfurished and I will buy new furniture for my place. & if the place I am viewing does have a odour, I might kill the agent cause I can't stand smell. I swear my place will have nice smell so customer will like it :))

Some place can go eat shit, don't expect me to stay in those super dirty apartment. I will just fucking pain the walls black & pink. I don't understand some owners, the place are old, it looks like it smell badly, and still asking for 2K and above, please rent to dog.

Hope I don't have to renovate, I just need to redesign the whole place.

Also, urban loft caught my eyes, theres's like a pool outside the apartment? But I haven't check the price yet. Or maybe we will just settle a place at HAJI. who knows. Done the maths :)

2011-10-23T09:16:00.000-07:00

STUDIO の写真; キャンディの boyfriend

P.S I didn't photoshop my photos TYVM.

面對面跟我說　你已經不愛我
有些話說不出口　害怕又犯下了錯

On saturday I had photoshoot w DF. Its my first time having photoshoot so please don't judge me :X I mean yes I had photoshoot w Clement, but that one no need pose, this one need to pose. Cracking my brain*

HALLOWEEN
ハロウィン
Thanks boyfriend for driving me there.
Thanks boyfriend for buying food for us.
Thanks boyfriend for waiting for me at studio.
Thanks boyfriend for everything
チュチュ

Thanks Twinnies for curling my hair for me
チューチュー

I am the world most fortunate gf.

I drew star with eyelinerスター

Rose chiffon top.

BFF.

It's my first photoshoot so please don't judge okay? I tried my best already.

Apple. The super pretty model.

NGシーン
Actually I am thinking of a pose lah! Omg, damn stone & blur can.

Colour blocks.

MY PANTS IS FUCKING DROPPING. OMG.

I LOVE THIS PHOTO BEST
スーパーのような
I turn my waist until want to die to get this effect.
FAINTS*
Hair Ribbon Bought by Love.

They say this dress not bad C:
It's too big for me.

学校の女の子

I super love the ribbon baby bought for me.

HAHA. Playing.

THEY SAY VERY RA?!
WILL MEHHHHHHHHHHH!

there's one I wear bunny hat and kneel down they say super porn -.-

First of all, TY df for giving me a chance to have ps & I hope Xmas I can do photoshoot w them too! Looking forward.

Tmr is the start of holiday. I will mug my ass off. I will not think of everything. I am damaged.

傷つける
(This song describe my feelings now )

Photo taken yesterday.

I know I am going to lose you for sure this time but I will fight for you till the end of time. Cause I still want you in my life because I love you alot. It's 2 years of memories. My longest relationship. The most unique guy I ever had in my life. I will fight to keep you clement heng in my arms.

I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU.
あなたのために戦う

Met up with my 2 super great friends Mun & Miao. My fyp besties! Ate seoul garden & chill our day off at Starbuck. At least it was a great catch up and yes we are waiting for karina this december to be back.

& if by 28years old I am not married I am gonna find __________. (inside joke*)

I bought this today & I nearly went berserk at Watson.
Peach pink アップして
(Lucky Mun Found it for me )

No matter how tough this week is, I will smile and get by.

I broke down again when bro talked to me. I just wanna fly to china & hug daddy tightly now. I want to fly and cry on daddy shoulder. I wanna fly & made daddy sleeve wet with my tears again. Cause I can't hold it any longer.

I am happy when you are changing your status to married in fb.

v ペリー,
告訴我　怎麼做才是普通朋友

2011-10-16T10:57:00.000-07:00

Finally talked it out with baby. Is everything fine?

LOL, not really. But at least I know (& the whole world) knows we love one another alot. But he said he will be with me, be my bestfriends and guide me and still love & protect me. Thats enough for me. He is my best boyfriend ever. The previous ones can go eat shit i swear.

I am doing 100 things for the 1 mistake I done to him 6 months ago.

I did something which even I, me & myself can't forgive myself up till now. & yet, he still hold me tight & promised to forget the issue. I am really very very touched by him. Cause if you know the truth, you will judged me, I swear you would C: & even things like that happened, he still cover blanket for me before he went off and hugged me.

I can go fug myself.

First one is an poor asshole while second one is a no ballers (okay please don't kill me mik).

He hugged me today and I broke down. & I realised Love is when you let the other half go and he/she wants to stay. I will work hard and he is accompanying me next saturday. Hope can watch real steel and change up with him & prolly meet friends for supper.

I won't forget those times when he isn't in army, he would took bus early in the morning say 7am to my house and sleep with me till 10am and accompany me eat lunch and send me to school and wait for me to end school and fetch me home, and he will took bus home and when I am hungry again he would drive me out for dinner and if I am hungry at 3am he would buy porridge for me and massage my neck and shoulder while I am still mugging.

When I fly, he would called me everyday to my house even there like 15 numbers to typed. He would email me and msg me daily when I am away. When I am coming home, he would go airport to fetch me and bring me for frog dinner.

When I am mad with him, he would wait downstairs my house till I go down.

When I need to collect my lens, my clothes, my facial products, he would go collect for me no matter how far it is.

When I am sick, he would takecare of me and cook porridge for me & I swear I don't mind having high fever anytime because he would use cold towel and put on my back so it could decreased my temperature.

When I have a flea, he would helped me out the whole day and I felt very happy that day because even the environment is very humid and we didn't really eat, he just helped me with no complains (except that he is super angry when I sold my belt cheap).

When I overspend my money, he would always bring money for me.

He told me he just want me to be good, thats all, no more stubborness, no more bad temper, no more rebellous. You know what? I am going to cherish you more & more and overcome this hurdle.

Omg, sorry if I sounded way too mushy and those 13 years old "luRbBE eUx foReber" kinda bullshit. Yes, my language wasn't fantastic, it was horrible, but thats all my thoughts so don't judge.

Hope I can have a simple yet happy saturday. I have so much to talk to you. It sets me thinking and reflecting after this week. I love you, my mr c.

xoxo,
vanny

2011-10-14T11:50:00.000-07:00

I want to be more than just 友達, 私はあなたを愛して
(I really meant what I said from the above sentence)

Alot of things running thru my mind, this week was disastrous.

1.5k case summary (Handed in)
Statistics Mid-term test (Done)
MicroEconomics Mid-term test (Done)

I slept at almost 5am everyday and skipped all lectures this week. So I hope I can get more than just A for my papers. & mum asked me not to work so hard, oh well, I am responsible for my own future. And last week, I cried like mad over my presentation end up I got an decent A. If I aren't penalised for choosing the wrong partner (as what tutor said) I guessed I could have a lil more marks? C:

Oh well, I am done w it.

This week:
1.8K essay
&
Accounting Assignments

:C

Plans for upcoming 1 week break

a) Photoshoot w December-Flight

(mad excited because it's a studio shooting and the theme is "Cute Halloween"? Got myself prepared by flipping tons of vivi and I shall draw a heartshape using eyeliner at the end of my eyes", hope it will be mad cute ( I am not refering to me, but the mini heartshape). I kept telling them that they have to photoshop on my aneroxic body, LOL. Well, I still hope it will be fun and I shall do much more research to improve myself)

b) Meeting up with dearest miao n mun on Sunday (js, you can bang the wall, keep have duty!)

& maybe for the one week break I ama gonna rest? Oh well, mummy is flying next week. No more extra allowances.

Mum: You want extra allowances or anything, within my limit, Mum will give you anything but please don't take for granted and now she had some criteriors for me to hit:

a) must bathe before 10pm
b) cannot raise my voice
c) must tidy my bed after I woke up
d) must throw my soiled clothes into the bin and cannot leave it around

& cannot switch tv channels while people is watching, she said I am rude.

OMG. why is she imposing such criteriors for me?

But she is really nice, when she is back, she will get me loads of supplements, contact lens solutions and get me my facial products and bring me for facial every 3 weeks

So after she is gone, I guessed I must tighten my purse. Friends said my Mum is cool? Not at all pls. & a couple of days ago, she said, hey, if you reached home please hang those clothes out if there is sunlight. & when she came home:

" why only 2 bamboo sticks out?! and the rest still indoor?"

I got no strength okay!

This week is a reflection week. I did reflection on myself. And even I am sleep-deprived, I am here reflecting. For the things I had done wrong.

Not entirely, but I guessed it was most of it.

I thought there will be somebody who can guide me till the end, but guessed what? Nothing is forever. Made a decision, yet what made me so upset was even most of the people esp family are supportive of it. & no more, thats it, no more words of advice, nothing.

Maybe ( not maybe), I knew it that I am not the type of girl elders will like? I don't club, smoke, drink, tatoo, but oh well, maybe, other factors define me as a person? I feel I really can't find a family that can accept me for who I am (besides my own family).

When all of the people out there are against me, where are you?

But I don't blame anybody, because they want the best for you and prolly they feel you can't have happiness with me. Omg, am I making assumptions again? But this is who I am because nobody bothers to explain to me and I have come to a stage whereby I feel even I had alot to say, to do, wanting to turn back the clock and change every little things, not changing myself, but changing the things I could do.

& now no matter how much I want back this relationship, I won't do anything because I really dk what I can do anymore because everything seems so negative? I thought somebody would guide me, talk it out with me, but what I got was only my decision had been respected.

Oh well, maybe I am just a nobody that nobody bothers and want me to stay.

NOBODY AT ALL.

& I really dk if I am going for the couple date dinner tmr, so wierd, but nice cecilia said if I am going alone she will asked her bf not to come to accompany me, oh gosh, pass me the whole tissue box can*

Oh well, now you shoud be able to guess the ending so stop asking esp js.

I need somebody to really talk to me and told me everything will be fine but not anymore, won't happen. & it's kinda sad when Pamela always MIA & I didn't want to kept wa miao because she needs to work. OMG, fml, seriously.

Well, I will survived, I definitely will! I know I am not being accepted even after 2 years, yada yada, but I must be happy C: and slowly change my bad habits. HAHA. Even I miss ruru, I will also see her photos because it will be sooooo wierd and nobody will accept me anyway.

Next week is the last week of school
^^Y

2011-10-09T07:57:00.000-07:00

強勢を置;
放了自己，放了回忆，

拥有过期待也有过等待，放了之后才明白

I FEEL SO FUCKED UP over my schoolwork. Everything is so not smooth for me. Initially meeting beloved fyp peeps but I need to take a retest and then again the online test had been removed super fml. Don't know will have grades anot.

And on my presentation day my group kena humilated for one hour straight, duper fml, and I think my partner ought to die. Caused me to loss my grades, and sorry, now I feel every marks count already, unlike the past I would not even care but now no, I am aiming for higher distinction for every single subjects. And super thanks to him, I need to do double work and grades still kenna affected. Seriously, he should apologised to me but he didnt. This marks the end of our friendship. tykkxbb.

Had a big fight w c and he called me just now to hth talk w me. He bought me milk tea today and collect my contact lens for me. TY btw.

And this week 2 major exams and I had not done with my 1.5k essays. I am super stress and super touchy. I asked mummy not to talk to me because I need to do my work and she said no need work so hard. Yea, the more I need to rock on.

Already seating here for the whole day. I hope my hard work pay off.

I need a wallet badly :C
( i love this 2 designs, soo preety)

Maybe I shall get it once I come back from bkk. I love the leather smell also! Tricia sis bought sth similar to this and the leather smell so nice. For now, I can't afford it.

The nude pink one is like $700 (limited edition)

If I live on $10 per day I need to save for 2 months. seriously cnnt afford.
The black one if I live on $10 per day I need to save for 1 month.

but the thing is with $10 you top up ezlink also ....

So just enjoy the picture! I shall get a cheaper wallet (: Cause Prada is a want not need ^^

Oh btw dad was back home last week. And I always hold his hand don't feel like letting go at all.

Dad brings me to Takashimaya and said:

What present you want? Choose! Dad buy a branded bag for you.

Me: It's alright because last year you bought the gucci bag for me

Dad: You want another Gucci?

Me: Its okay, nvm.

I think I grew up already.

I overheard his convo with his friends. He said no matter how tough his business is, he will work hard for me cause daughter only got one. Instantly felt like crying. Idk why I cried so much recently. I really dk la.

So I went jalan jalan w dad to those designer shops but didnt get anything. I really love my dad. Yada yada he is using money to buy back time he didn't spend with me since young but I dont blame him, really. As long as he comes back and placed me the first place in his heart I am happy already.

I am saying not to haolian or what, but I am really really touched by him. you just wont understand how precious I feel it is have a dad for a few days out of the entire year.

I count my blessings.

Even my mum also not around most of the times. So you won't understand one.

oh well, I need to do my work already :(

IF SOMEBODY SAW THIS PLEASE KINDLY TELL ME WHERE TO GET :C
I can't find in japanese store outlets and I love this!

2011-10-01T09:47:00.000-07:00

ストレス@作業; never regret anything because at one time it was exactly what you wanted

"have a nice life"
um who am I kidding?
I hope you get hit by a truck.

Hi guys, how have you all been? I am tied down by school work and I can feel the stress already. Tons of assignments/tutorials/online quiz to be done. On Monday, I promised my partner to discuss about our presentation but I went Chinatown w the rest so didn't managed to get back to school on time.

He still asked me need to help me sign in for tutorial not. Felt so guilty.

& my kimchi friend said if I were to go to Korea, just buy tickets and not to worry about the rest of the things like accomodation/food & everything. & he stayed near SM company. I am tempted to go Holiday there.

So now I have 3 places in mind; korea/goldcoast/hongkong

Need to check outprices, decide on one, and fly next year. I aren't really into shopping now, so I may choose korea or goldcoast. But still I hope to go goldcoast cause of their geographic factors. I need to save hard.

If that clement heng don't want to go with me cause he act hero paying for his own school fees then I shall go myself. You have two choices, that is, either you go with me for rewarding me after this 2 years of fucked up life next year, or never. I take this very seriously.

OMG, can you believe it?
MY BOY WILL BE HAVING ORD in less than a year C:

He turned twenty-one this week and stubborn me didn't have dinner w him caused he made me so pissed off.

& I wanted a breakup. But afterwhich he told me it wasn't worth it at all. deep breathe* must give & take! Initially we are going for supper with 4 other couples tonight BUT dued to the fucked up schedule we need to rescheduled. Seriously, I am super pissed off and can't stop nagging.

I am here waiting for 2 years, and yes I am touchy and grumpy. 2 fucking years C: Just together for a few months and there he goes in for 2 fucking years. So please don't take me for granted because I can choose not to wait, but I still did. The whole situation is so fucking unfair but well, lets not dwell on it cause it won't help improve the situation.

I can wait but don't be a bitch and keep argue with me, you know I won't give face even on your 21st :) Face was so fucking black & even mummy can't cheer me up thou she tried to be more friendly.

Okay, but so far so good, he is still very nice to me. But I hate his gangster temper. Fucking sucks. & he always nagged at me like for god sake, my family don't even do this.

Ah C: Thats why you become like so spoilt and pampered

I don't see his point. I spoiled and pampered my problem, no need you to nag and change me. I won't become who you want me to be. I won't give face when I am pissed, thats the fact. & right now, idk where the hell he had been to. Duty or sleep or shit? Seriously, that pissed me off.

I hope I wake up tmr there will be somebody who brings me for a decent lunch.

I won't marry a stingy man no matter how much he loved me C:

pissed.

2011-09-19T10:24:00.000-07:00

愛の週末; Lovely weekends for just you & me

Watching the aircraft flew passed us as we swim at the rooftop, made my weekend a wonderful one. Throwing everything to the back of my mind and lazing around for the 3 days made me a happy girl. Nothing else matter anymore.

Eat, sleep, swim, movie, supper, sleep, swim, have fine dining at rooftop resturant, what more can I ask for?
(how I wish there will be a pause button?)

Thanks baby for buying pink goggles for me. Was wearing ah c polo because scatter brain me didn't bring enough clothes.

It's not a really good week for me as rashes came back & one doctor refered me to hospital and one doctor said I should not go hospital. Confusion much?

Well, that pretty much sums up a bad week for me as I missed classes for entirely 2 days. Whatsapp w twinnies made my weekend a happier one. I really don't need alot of friends, just a few close one will do and yea, I am blissed that I had a few who really stood by me and love me for who I am no matter what happens. You know who you are.

I hope I am not someone who you would think of when you need somebody to be there, but somebody who will be on your mind all the time.

Cause I begin to realise who care & who doesn't

Baby didn't woke me up for the past 2 days because hardworking me brought my work to do until wee hours thus I woke up at noon. Still go bf place to print 20 page journal to read kay.

fml, but whenever I woke up there will be changi nasi lemak on the table :) But he was so pissed whenever I eat on the bed, *like I care*? I mean why can't we eat on the bed? I mean yes it's a bad habit but nomming yummy food on bed and watching tv in whatever posture you want is damn comfy right?

Plus I am sure I won't stained the bed. I seriously dk why he made a big fuss out of it, I love nomming my food on my bed and theres nothing wrong w it. so shut up. haha. before you goes like "eew" , you mean you don't eat while seating on the sofa watching tv?

will post photos in fb esp the rainbow cupcake I made.

with love,
Vanessa

& before I forgot, I wanna congrats Mikitty for having a girlfriend like finally, but that day the words he said really does pissed me off. But nevertheless, I am glad that we grew & mature together & now we have our own companion :) cheers to happiness*

ALL ASSIGNMENTS DONE *_*

12 more weeks to bangkok
7 more months to taiwan.

2011-09-06T10:42:00.000-07:00

Launched, but not yet started on adverts part.

So here you go, www.perryplane.livejournal.com

Thanks to twins, who taught me lj layout & even drew indications on image to guide me thru, appreciate you, LOVE. & also she helped me so much. Secondly, ty miao for helping me at photoshoot and also she's my first customer :)) ty love.

Last but not least, my SUPER LOVER/HERO, whom always pump in money for my online boutique. HEEHEE. Love him love him.

To be honest, school sucks, except accounting where I can seat tgt with catty lian :D

won't be updating my blog for quite awhile because I will be busyyyyyy :(

Postponed my trip to feb/april :D Initially going hk w xj & bf, miao n m but I want to go taiwan hello kitty cafe lehhhhhhh. LOL. we shall plan & make it possible plssss.

LOVE,
VANNY

2011-09-01T10:06:00.000-07:00

It's 1am now yet I am still editing banner for perryplane. Not yet done but will do up the collection this week. Photoshoot on saturday :D

I Booked Bkk trip again. Alright. I AM CRAZY. So december will be going bkk and January hopefully can go hello kitty cafe in Taiwan because baby promise me he would bring me go! But if i no money I will go hk, cause I can stay at daddy's appartment, hopefully.

EARN MONEY! DO MORE COLLECTION! SAVEEE MONEY!

Need to wake up at 7am for stats class.
f.

2011-08-28T09:46:00.000-07:00

泰国;ハネムーン

Back to town after 7 days in bkk and tmr is my first day of school. I apologised for not getting everyone's items because I spend all of my money and still borrowed from boy. Never in my life spend so much on accessories and yes I am going to studio soonish for upcoming collection.

I spend 2grand in total and my collection better be good. boy nagged me like nobody business because he feels that I must launch collection frequently and he is sponcering for my collection because he did so much analysis for me. S&P did earned for the previous few collection but I don't have the time to keep it going.

So much things happened & I am glad I am still alive and kicking.

Me w only sunblock base & loose powder.

Pink theme for my room.

Going to sleep w.o make up. Wearing the mickey mouse tee boy bought for me. Maybe less make up really does make me look better.

I missed the oreientation so I guessed I am gonna be a loner for tmr >w<

Will upload my photos tmr & I want to fly soonish w twins to bkk.

Monday Blues.

2011-08-21T10:29:00.000-07:00

外町の; out of town

Firstly, thanks to those who visited me at my flea C: appreciate the efforts! Secondly, thanks everyone who helped me and lend me mirror/rack for the flea and last but not least, I am grateful to c who helped me throughout and went thru everything w me without food for half of the day because we were both damn busy throughout to even get food.

Denis drove miao to visit me & got me famous amos cookie. My bff so sweet.

I am flying in a few hours time (:

行ってらっしゃい

2011-08-17T10:19:00.000-07:00

私のすべて; When he really loves you, he'll always be there for you, through your worst and your best

我知道太美的回忆像副手铐
越是挣脱越缠绕我比你明了

I am so addicted to 散場的擁抱 by 倪安東, the mtv so sad.

Waves madly to my love ones out there* I hardly reply text(es) & whatsapp(es) this week because I am busy w spring cleaning my room. Got rid of those rubbish and unwanted materials and & really got a shock when those stuffs pile up. Did so much cleaning up and now my room is super neat and clean

Also, I did much packing for my upcoming flea this saturday at youth scape park. Do drop by if you happen to be in town alright? I literally gonna sell everything in my wardrobe and all my bags. I took a photo and show c how much clothes I had and yes, I got to admit I am a shopaholic.

I had not do up my price tag because I really dk how much I am selling those apparels

anw I ended work last sunday. Hug some of them cause they treat me damn good unlike those guardian see-bee (just one in particular), I hope she kena fucked upside down by bangaladesh. Bioessence promoter gave me bird nest samples. How nice of her. I just miss all of them because they are really nice people.

& apart from cleaning up my room which I enjoy doing so, I did up the air purifier and spam a huge amount of "vanila" scent and my whole room smells like cupcakes, I swear, but my mum hated it so much that she changed to lavender scent. Plus the purifier why you no come in pink?

That day shipei came to collect books from me & we shopped at daiso which I spend alot on getting my pink boxes for storage purpose. It really helps.

Met up w Tricia sis and Cecilia yesterday. Gossiping session was great while 3 of our poor ah beng bf was serving army. Initially meeting fyp mates but mun was sick and we forgot to tell brother sheng that meet-up was canceled and omg he went to amk alone and waited for us.

SORRY PARTNER

I rarely go facebook unless necessary. I am active in twitter and in whatsapp because of people like that (below)

What you mean by so not like me? You seems to understand me hor?

I really looks like clubber meh? Seriously I don't remember me telling this chap I club? Or rather I don't remember me having a conversation w him because I don't talk to strangers in fb. As you can see I don't reply his convo.

You may ask me shut the fuck up and why accept him in the first place then?

So let me tell you, because last time I literally accept everyone who adds me but now I guessed I won't be like that anymore because. . .

& the list goes on & ii-dunch-know-these-peeps

Idk why I always meet wierd people, all the social escort msg(es) all the whatever shit. My dp also no put me w cleavage or hugging those clubbers w a cup of volka/martini on my hand & w my red face/body all over right? Yada yada you may think I got attitude problem but I isn't like those AA "active fb users" (which I only can tell my twins who)

Because I am much more comfortable talking to my bff(s).

Idk why I can't save this photo in fb so I print screen it.

We have got the same hair parting.
We have got the same base colour; Lavender Ash
We have got the same hair length
We have got quite-the-same temper
We have got straight hair (just that hers is naturally straight while I need to go rebon and hers still looks straighter, fml)
& we both looks like chao ah lian when we don't smile (fol)

Observe our features, apart from that she is taller and bigger in size than me, our face feature is kind of similar lor. Esp this picture it looks as if she liquify her face smaller. even my bf agreed that we looks alike.

Met her last week & finally pass her the birthday pressie I got for her. Hope she likes it, had a great meal at Ipudo Ramen and the super yummy chicken at Ion.

2 more days to flea & 4 more days to Bangkok. Hope when I wake up everymorning I can see you sleeping soundly instead of watching me sleep and packing my stuffs for me.

I've got all of my friends shopping list. I will try my best to get what you guys want okay? & I shall go copy & paste all those stuffs to microsoft words. LOL. I really really hope can go overseas during beginning of next year!

2011-08-10T08:53:00.000-07:00

最終的な; the only thing boy should change is your last name

Real men never stop trying to show a girl how much she means to him.
Even after he got her.

Today is the last day working at that fucked up place. Cried on Monday over work issues, lucky it's all over now.

Going to clear and clean my bedroom because I am preparing for flea next week. Feels so proud of myself seeing part of my bedroom so cleannnn. Needa wake up early tmr to accompany mummy to temple and I shall go pay school fees.

Meeting twinnies on Friday and back to watson on weekends finally. Meeting Tricia sis on Monday and also not forgetting to meet fyp mates on Wednesday. I need to use rest of the days to pack my room and prepare price tag for flea. Saturday it's my flea and sunday I got to do last minute shopping and pack luaggage w boy.

Shit I have not called the airline to increase my luaggage size and I need to do a online check-in this sunday. fml. I haven't change the rest of my currency also. super fml. I still need to go back my culinery school to pack my locker.

Hope life will be better. Really. I need somebody to rely on cause I am tired of doing things.

Last but not least, Happy Birthday Munyra again C:

xoxo,
vanessa

2011-08-06T08:31:00.000-07:00

メモリ; "Are you Crying?" "No, I'm impersonating a fountain."

♡痛是以后无法再给你幸福♡

fml, got mc for the past 3 days. Cough till machiam got tuber. illness. Thanks baby for taking great care of me and accompany me to see doctor but he is a very stupid yet cartoon guy.

Me: *gonna puke*

C: use both his hands to do the wanna catch my puke action*

Dk what he thinking, go grab a plastic bag ma -.-

I am so upset about working at tpy, hope thy send me back to my watson tmr. And 7 more days to end of work. But I think they are going to drag my pay again. I need it for my bkk trip. fml. Bringing 1.5k there if possible. Taking up a flea this month & hope business will be great. I am going to spoil market and sell my apparels at 5$. Because I realized I had alot of clothes. fml.

Hope ah c will accompany me w.o complain for the whole day. I shall treat him eat seafood somboon (best thailand resturant).

Planning for Australia trip this year end and also if possible, HK trip w clique. I am so broke, but I am happy being independent and giving mum allowances. I going to upgrade my luaggage size to 25kg because after clearing wardrobe (esp thefailshop clothes I grabbed), I will be left w a few apparels only.

Going back tpy tmr. Hope they don't be a bitch to me.

Been feeling rather upset today. Because somethings really quite bother me? I mean, if whats in between is a friend, I won't fucking care, but now is somebody who meant so much to you. I can't even say " I am not gonna see her face", I can't say things like that even I feel like punching people.

I rather shiver in the windy environment and coughing badly rather than going up to see her face. Cause I don't want to act normal when I have to. If it's a friend I surely would scold & scold in my blog, but now, can't even to anything, must smile and say hello somemore.

I seriously feels like hanging myself. & you can say things like "it's unfortunate and dk why still want me" that kind of things when I swear I am being nice all the time to you. Need say until like that meh. ( aiya, sure telling me not saying me again and I am paranoid, but it's so obvious alright, but you peng wei die also don't want admit what can i do right? cause if you admit sure kenna say what, you dare to swear that none of that is saying me? But why so gam ah, immediately after I post you will say nasty things, not once, not twice not trice okay!)Barrier is 1000x further. I swear if it's not for your sake she will get hell from me, but now I am facing hell and swallowing my pride. Just that no need to kneel down and serve tea.

The next person who interfere my relationship will get a fucking hell. I MEANT IT.

& because of her it's affecting us. IT IS. Idk how to be a good person from today onwards. & for a person who scold parents vulgarity won't earn any of my respect. I won't give you chance. Cause I am very very particular about children scolding parents. Yes, I will judge them, just like how you judge me.

AFTER I POST BF sure come say me, but you know what, fuck it already, I AM UNHAPPY. WITH HER. Give up on me if you feel being sandwiched inbetween. I super bue loon already.

Going to tell Dad this matter soon. & I learn something new, being nice to people doesn't mean they will be nice to you. Makes me blood boil only. But I am touched by what c texted me earlier. I believe if a person is kind hearted, she will be pretty.

xoxo,
dying me

2011-08-01T09:15:00.000-07:00

興奮した ; i will give you my heart till the end of time

Learn to appreciate what you have, before time makes you appreciate what you had
♡ 21 more days to BKK ♡
(send me all shopping list by then ya)

I am ending my work next sunday. A little emotional i guessed? Working w awesome colleagues? workplace is 5 minutes from my house? Meeting new friends? LOL, I noticed one thing, customer love asking me to choose D.I.Y hairdye for them as well as on Japanese cosmetic.

Examples:

How do you bun your hair?
Where do you buy your eyeliner?
What is your hair colour?
What perfume do your wear?
Where can I buy dollywink?

These are the frequent questions I got from customers. & thus, I learn a little Japanese.

非常に幸せ

Seriously, idk why they love asking me about japanese cosmetic. & I actually knew all the japanese products in store & their usage & application methods. Because whenever I am free, I will stay at the cosmetic section. Can they hire me as dollywink promoter?

But from tmr onwards I be at tpy outlet for 7 days. I cursed and swear like nobody business.

I did straightening today. Initially wanted to perm but I am afraid that it will be too mature for me. But I love waves. Gave mummy money today and bought her something. Bought bf something too. Hope he loves it.

Boy: I need to tell you something, I think about it for a very long time.

Me: If you want a break up, just leave.

Boy: I was thinking how I can treat you better as a boyfriend

Me: #$%^&* wtf, I thought what happen man. but aww* Love you boy.

You can treat me better by buying me dollywink eyeliner limited edition. LOL. Well, went to see plane at changi after eating Changi Village Nasi Lemak and Milo Dino, I feel super happy idk why. Even the food is cheap, but it's so god damn yummy. Heart to heart talk w boy.

I had tons of things yet to settle. School fees, savings account matters, SIT balance. . fml. I swear I am working hard to get myself out of poverty.

Recently I kept WA with Mrs Hello kitty, well, talked about everything. & guessed what? I am smiling. Because somebody is having relationship problem I guessed? This is what I called karma bitch. I told ya, can't last means can't last. see? & now I shall see how your relationship falls right infront of my eyes.

♥

Karma left you w NOTHING.

To Mrs Kitty, I will always support you and be with you no matter what. Happy, Sad or Angry. hang in there (: Love you always.

& I think I am gonna ask fyp mates out for a dinner soonish (: I am missing Miao, Mun & Ah sheng!& also hope to meet twinnies if she can take leave next week. Initially meeting shipei but last minute got work.
HEH.

Love everyone.

goodbye.

2011-07-24T09:56:00.000-07:00

泣く People are fake, but let your trust last longer ろくでなし

夏季; I am so unhappy today.

Seriously, I feel so upset and dissappointed. When you need help, I did all my best and shove off my work and did research for you. You had some problems I tried my best to advice you. I tried my best to fix this relationship. When your Dad met problems I gave concern and inform c, & yet, what do I get in return today?

Do you know a simple thing you did end me up in a real bad shape?

I don't want to pursue, I don't want to care. I just feel so upset so upset. why?

You are not me, you dk how i feel exactly? You dk what happen in between yet? You can sleep peacefully but me? I am having fever yet staying up late thinking and feeling upset. I swear in my life nothing felt like today. Seriously, I tried my best and sorry I won't try for you anymore.

Idk who I can turn to seriously. Not my boy, I don't want him to be caught in the middle.

I don't blame you but I am just very dissappointed in you. Really.

Hugged boy & cried today.
Never in my life I felt so 委屈

It. really. sets. me. thinking. alot.

& if you can think I am still not good enough, do find another girl. Really. I swear I am serious, esp this issue. Cause I went thru this impact before, it's a nightmare to me. I won't say much anymore, but to swallow this unhappiness of mine. I am supressing my feelings cause I am considering everybodys feelings.

I black out again. This time at watson. Boy came to fetch me. I was kind of crazy and spam him 60 msg(es) at night. yet, be came for me again. Bring me for supper. Had fever.

Sometimes I feel I wronged my boy, no matter how bad I quarrelled and scolded him, he will still come for me. aww. But this 2 days he scolded me, because I am being so stubborn. and I can't stop crying. He said he scolded me because he isn't like my parents who will spoilt me, he said I am spoilt and stubborn bla bla shit.

well, i didn't talk to c last week because of some trival matters, alright I am petty. But seriously some status need to like?? Idk what makes this miss dawn to like?? Lao niang don't want to talk my problem? yes? then? so? by liking will make me talk? Theres bascially nothing to like?? Is there?

I don't care if you like pretty photos of me (prepare plastic bag), but status like that don't cha feel awkward to like? rolled eyes*

& boy, if I still see this status by this week, don't come meet me during weekends tyvm *fold arms*

Anw on a happier note, I am starting school next month. Waves madly* Taking double major in business under Newcastle. Last chance. Last decision. I am gonna do my very best as this is my 3rd uni. FML. I think I sounds like I am having attitude problem & keep changing school.

Well, I got to go, 20 more days to end of work. 1 more week to get salary!

Big fraction goes to bkk trip.

Small fractions to mum.

Some savings for boy upcoming birthday.

& hope theres some moolah left for my bag.

Alright, I gtg eat medicine, & sleep. But my head is splitting & I feels like slapping myself for being sad.

你让我很失望很难过

xoxo,

yours truely.

2011-07-19T08:52:00.000-07:00

にホールド ; When two people care about each other, they'll always look for a way to be together

我恨自己无能为力

Had a stayover @ Park regis hotel. Gonna upload pictures soonish. Cause everybody's waiting for me.

Today I went down to supercut to get my hair done. Realized lavender ash is too bright, so decided to have it tone down. Done lowlight instead of highlight. So now my hair have 2 tone. Done treatment.

Me: My bf loves me w black hair but I really love having brown hair
P: Nobody love their gf to look ah lian just like you don't like your bf to look like ah beng
Me: But when I first know him he is a beng *insert photo*

P: But you were attracted to him

Me: Of course.

& that's when I missed you. I won't contact you for the time being because you really hurt me this time round. aren't gonna elaborate.

fullstop.

Nothing much happened this week except for I quarrelled w somebody called Dawn. Seriously, I feel like throwing the 7bucks on her face. Still want me to help out w the mascara event? fuck off. But I am still buying magaholic mascara. Sometimes it's not about the money issue, it's about the fucked up attitude people are giving and aren't taking responsibilities.

You really think I am a person who will argue my way just because of 7bucks?

you didn't asked me to report sales my fault?

you delay my pay for weeks my fault?

you asked me to head down to your office and in the end you aren't present for work my fault?

I am officially not working for freshkon anymore.

7 bucks want to argue your way thru? Fine, go buy joss sticks for yourselves.

& Mummy gonna bring me to doctor soon. I kept dragging because I don't want to face reality. Was rather pale looking today. yea, I know the consequences perfectly. I know. But it's too much for me to take it. So much things happened recently & I am gonna break down sooner or ltr.

I told Mummy I will go see doctor next mth. HAHA. Managed to stall time again.

see doctor means eat medicine. yucks. & next mth I will tell her next mth again.

Tommorow will be another day of pale looking face. fml. & when I am sad I can eat up to one big tub of ice cream, super fml.

& the person who pranked me today, fuck off cause I won't entertain. Since you wanna know pretty girls go fuck hookers.

Gonna rest soon (:

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢

2011-07-10T07:14:00.000-07:00

繰り返; Love gave us fairy tale, once in awhile

I am so exhausted now. Yesterday went audrey 21st @ arenda. Ah c bought yakult green tea from yishun for me & came to fetch me. After the birthday headed down to bedok 85 w 3 more couples for supper. I am craving for yakult green tea again :S But it's only available at Northpoint.

I am slack today for work. But a lady which purchase a basket of VS sasson haircare products from me save my day. I am starting to make friends there. Got one staff so nice lend me his staff card so I can have discount. & stocks came in this week but on the following day all conditioner out of stock again. I wanna be top sales this month.

btw today there's this female couple of our age shouting & fighting at watson happening right infront of my eyes. I should get popcorn earlier. & the gf shouted sth about " you guys don't look at us go away", like please la, then don't do it at public la cb. & I am standing right infront of them because my station is like a few cm away from them. knn.

"bf" : SAY SORRY!

gf: Sorry

"bf": sorry isn't enough okay! SAY SORRY!

gf: sorry

"bf": your face like fuck okay?

I swear by my name if clement heng did this to me he will die terribly.

Well, I shall stop here because tmr still have work I needa rest. Hope miao can go HK trip with us (:

xoxo,

さようなら

2011-07-06T09:42:00.000-07:00

あなたが恋しい; why do i still wanna believe? I miss you

Had my off day today. Pamper myself with cabbing to town, eat soup dumpling, bought apparels from f21 and french manicure. Hope thy don't delay my pay. I went to sign my withdrawal letter from school C: My nightmare is over?, no, I am required to pay 5k. Seriously must sell butt already.

Working was alright. I am working hard towards my 1K commission. There's this particular case I want to rant about. There's this lady customer super detailed and thus I assisted her.

She had oily scalp and dry ends.

Me: You can try Loreal or VS Sasson (yes, I am vs sasson promoter)

Bitch: Why are you promoting them? Because they are from the same company & you are the promoter right?

Me: Loreal is Loreal, VS is from P & G, different. *fake a smile* & she continues to check whether Loreal & VS is from same company
( I mean come on lah knnb, don't know don't come & act like you know)

Bitch: I am thinking to get sunsilk because my shampoo is running low

Me: Alright, but for oily scalp you can use head & shoulders as it's a scalp shampoo that unclog pores and control oil from scalp

Bitch: But sunsilk also stated that it's for scalp care and hair care

Me: Yes, but it's not the perfect remedy for scalp care. Normally I would encourage ladies who have the same problems like you to use scalp shampoo and also normal shampoo but use it alternately.

Bitch: I will think about it

ME: THANK GOD, you know I don't really love to entertain these kind of people

Next day she came back wanting to buy the scalp shampoo but was OUT OF STOCK. So I said why not she get sunsilk because her shampoo is running low and scalp shampoo is OOS right?

BITCH: U ARE CONTRADICTING YOURSELVE

*BLOOD BOILING* CCB. SCALP SHAMPOO 7BUCKS ONLY YOU WANNA KAOPEH. I MEAN COME ON LAH, AS A WORKING ADULT 7 BUCKS YOU WANNA MAKE A BIG FUCK OUT OF IT. AND SINCE SCALP SHAMPOO OOS THEN YOU TAKE BACK YOUR FUCKING SUNSILK LAH! WHAT'S THE FUCKING PROBLEM? OH I AM CONTRADICTING MYSELF HUH?

THEN WHO IS THE ONE WHO DOESN'T WANT TO TAKE SCALP SHAMPOO AND THEN COME BACK BUY AGAIN?

PLEASE LAH, YOU THINK YOUR 7 BUCKS BIG FUCK MEH. KNN, ALSO NOT ENOUGH FOR ME TAKE CAB TO TOWN, MOREVER I WAS HELPING OUT W HER FUCKING CB HAIR.

But the rest of my customer is very very nice and usually thank me for helping them find the right haircare lor. & she said alot of brands she cannot use, and what using keratase serum which is super expensive. & sounded like idk what the heck is keratase. PCB, lao niang using redken & keratase shampoo and conditioner now. THINK IDK!

Got dry ends still keep perm perm perm & don't wash hair daily, OF COURSE OILY LAH!

Seriously, I love meeting new people & helping them. Ytd a lady praise me because I helped her find cosmetic and explained to her make up products even it's none of my fucking business, she said I am very very nice. LOL. I still help her choose Majolica lipgloss okay. I love this job, but some bitch just pissed the fuck out of me.

&&& since I am at haircare section I am nice enough to help customer choose DIY hairdye.

I really love helping people even I have no individual gains. I believe what goes around comes around so be nice & appreciate everyone.

I found a new place in Pungol. Naise. Super nice. & that day Cyn & SP brought their toy dog! So cute. We prawned & walk dog. I think next week they gonna book hotel, MJ, swim, yada yada, I only got 1 off day :x

This sat is aud birthday, hope can go prawning w baby. Wanna spend some time w him. I am so touched cause last sunday I didn't bring money w me & he bring money for me. heehee. Also he bought $1 ding ding sweet for me. But he didn't in his life, once buy hello kitty stuffs for me!

Well, gonna end this post here. I am really broke this month.

xoxo,
V
さようなら

2011-07-05T11:23:00.000-07:00

FINALLY FINISHED MY SALES REPORT

(it's like 2.30am now)

疲れた

Today I was writing sales report & when I turned my head, I saw ah c. He came to surprise me & accompany me makan pizzahut. aww~

Watched "Transformer" w cynthia, wilson and ki. thumbs up*

Btw, I am planning to extend my bkk trip to 1 week instead of 4 days. & also planning my Hongkong trip w xj and larry say year end or beginning of 2012. Will plan for paris trip next year end, I want to buy chanel caviar and jumbo please? Ah c you buy me chanel jumbo i marry you! LOL, kidding.

xoxo,

2011-07-01T21:28:00.001-07:00

Feel so unwell, cramps yet need to work. Ugh.

2011-07-01T10:47:00.000-07:00

My new hair colour; Lavender Ash

The few hours I spend with you are worth a thousand hours I spend without you.

It's 2am now yet I can't sleep. Am having tummy cramp since morning. I can't sleep, can't eat well & even pms-ed customer. But sales was the best today. ftw. Dollywink came in limited edition and I went store to take from the boxes and buy on the spot because singapore only left 45 sets.

Feel so cold, so unwell, so hungry now :/

Had been watching seven sister and the "no regrets" from SCV and both sad ending fml.

Hope this month can hit target and I calculate already, if I continue to keep up my steady sales, my commission will hit 1K (: Commission only, not including basic. Work so hard because I want to buy a bag, I am thinking of LV or agnes b. & watson store people ask why p & g only hire bimbo? I am not bimbo please. She thought I sold 3 bottles of shampoo for whole day? sorry, I sold 3 sets & 8 bottles -.- Stella left w a bad image I don't care, but I am not bimbo.

Dad asked me if I need extra money & I said it's alright.

Mum: You are so stupid, must take money from dad so you can sign facial package!

Me: ftw.

& mum gave me extra allowances this month, & I returned her. OMG. I change surname already. Actually I feel that, I am 21 years old already, cannot keep take from them. Already so loserish for not studying and keep take money? Sorry no. & everyday mum would come visit me work, because she go shopping everyday buying useless stuff. Learn this value from my love that we should not take money from parents.

Like today she bought a 4 inch heels like wtf say very cheap $150, sorry in my life the most expensive shoe I wear was adidas only. Normally i go for 25 bucks shoe. But she happy I happy. & she kept ask me wanna go back china not. I am thinking maybe end of july or what :D I enroll in newcastle already, hope can get it, the person say should be not a problem.

I am so unwell. I am so unwell. I guess tmr work also sure not feeling well. Hope I don't suddenly tear. ftw right me. dk what happen to me this week. xj asked me go club tonight but I can't la, tummy cramp I go there sure die. Next week I have got tons on things to be done on my off day!

BESTIE SK IS BACK :D meeting her.

Btw mum was supposed to collect some parcel for dad so she made a call to check if the parcel had reached.

Mum: Hi, had the parcel _____ arrived?

Idiot: NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS RIGHT?

Mum: I am collecting for my husband excuse me?

Omgosh. When mum told me this all my vulgarity came out. I am protective to my parents. I won't stand all this shit. & mum can laughed at me. aiya whatever I in pms mode. tmr will be better, I wanna watch transformer ;( but nvm.

xoxo,

me (:

2011-06-26T08:05:00.000-07:00

怒って;
I do take things for granted. But that doesn't mean in the bottom of my heart I don't appreciate them

叶子的离开是风的追求，还是树的不挽留？

Maybe it's really the best for us to stay this way, having this distance. I am always angry, but I am angry for a reason. Girls are still girls, they want to feel that they are worth your love. Actions speak louder than words, talk is cheap. But right now, I really feel I am happy w this distance.

Why can't you see I am suffocating?

Why can't you see I am trying my best?

How much do you really understand me?

Am I really that bad/mean/unreasonable gf?

I am leaving.

I won't shout, won't scold, won't kb, won't argue, won't quarrel w you anymore. Idk how to get along w you anymore. I changed.

Work sucks, am going to quit after 2 weeks. Parents so thoughtful, changed thai currency for me already! Apple said she spent 2K for her bkk trip & think I shall bring 1.5K using part of my savings too. Need to bring in stocks for my sweetnpop. Need to revamp.

THEBLOGSHOP @HAJI

My blood vessels burst like dk how many zillion times talking about this. You should take a look at my sms(es)/essays with yun rong.

theblogshop clothes buffet allows you to fill in as much items as possible during 1 hour

(AS STATED)

$30 for paperbag (fucking tiny, says can only put 1 knitted wear)

$45 plasticbag (smaller than A4 size)

When we reached that fucking shop and saw the $30 paperbag, we were like "WTF-ing"

So I topped up $45 & the rule is if the bags were torn in any cases, no bags will be given, you will have to buy your own fucking new bag.

I didn't see any of the fucking apparels appeared in the fucking sneak preview, I was the first few batches HELLO?

Accessories limited to fucking 3 pieces? WOW? SINCE when got this mother fucking rule?

Time to shop was 20 minutes? SINCE WHEN AGAIN? Not 60 minutes?

PLASTIC BAG must passed through MISS PLASTIC DOLL & she will checked what you have taken? & SHE TOOK OUT MY BLACK SKIRT BECAUSE MY PLASTIC BAG CAN'T CLOSE & MUST BE STAPLED? & WHEN WE WANTED TO GO BACK TO GET SMALLER ITEM we were stopped by her & told that we could not get back in simply because we reached the fucking check point.

HELLO?

ROLLED MY EYES*

BAGS CAN'T EVEN FIT INTO THE PLASTIC BAGS EVEN IF WE FOLD! SO YOU DISPLAY THERE FOR CB purpose?

CLOTHES WILL BE REFILLED 30 MINUTES? TALK COCK!

SCAM!

No wonder your features also plastic. EVERYTHING IT'S DECEIVING.

Seriously $45 is all I will spend in this fucking shop. Victoria Jomo organizing new clothes buffet, I read the reviews, most of the customers have a pleasant experiences with them! I WILL TAKE PART for sure.

Clothes are OUTDATED & the tank top I got from there is stained! & as for contact lenses, idk if is 1 month usage, 3 months or 1 year usage? U MEAN THEBLOGSHOP is selling stained apparels? Your reputation will go down! Go search for theblogshop in twitter/blogspot, all filled with dissappointing COMMENTS!

& this is what I heard.

Dolly Plastic: Hey, you can't take out the packaging containing the items you want!

Customers: When we took it, it had already been opened!

Dolly Plastic: ISIT?!

WTF like seriously? Whats wrong with you. You want to scam customer money then don't make noise when customer took out the packaging :D You scam us we cheat a little, FAIR & SQUARE!

THE CLOTHES BUFFET > THUMBS DOWN!

& I was working today. Felt really sick & kenna kb by one of the guardian staff. All staffs is nice except for her!!

Me: Aunty ah, do you know is there any clinic near north point?

AUNTY: HOW WOULD I KNOW? I ALSO VISIT THEM BEFORE! OUR SHOP GOT YOU NO USE ALSO NEVERMIND.

PCB ANOT U TEL ME LAH! U TELL ME! THEN DON'T FUCKING HIRE ME LAH, THEN YOU GO SELL & MAKE VS SASSON SHAMPOO SALES MOVE BY THEMSELVES OK BOH? FUCK IT LAH. SERIOUSLY I HATE MYSELF FOR WORKING.

I MEAN, MY PAY LOOKS PEANUT TO MY PARENTS I ALSO KNOW. But I want to prove to them I can support myself but idk why got these KIND OF PCB AUNTY come & make me feel like giving up!

WHY WHY WHY!

WHY I HAVE TO FUCKING SEE HER FACE WHEN I CAN GO ENJOY LIFE W MY PARENTS. U TELL ME ISIT I SLUT. anyhow go work.

ALREADY SUPER SICK & KENA ATTTUDE SOMEMORE.

& so many things made me fucked up! Example bf giving his fucking attitude cause I gave him mine & he didn't come visit me. & so many fucking wierd customer ask me got shaver to shave PUBLIC HAIR ANOT. KU BYE LAH. & aunty seat down on the floor & broke the hair dye shelf & A CUSTOMER ARGUE W ME & A CUSTOMER soooooooooo so so so so ......

GRRS! ALL HAPPENED IN A DAY! except for one customer who said my complexion good, thanks to artistry! she also use artistry & she told me why her complexion still like this. LOL.

U TELL ME WHY! Now I know why bf don't allow me to work. & he said he will work doubly hard & take over his dad business & I shall join him for lunch. TALK IS CHEAP PLS.

& people 20 years old work for my dad as sales manager me 21 years old still FUCKING NOWHERE TO GO! soon he will have car & me still fucking nowhere i tell you.

ARGHSSSSSSS!!!!

I HATE LIFE!

I want to buy this! last time got bf buy, now single! BUY MYSELF! GRRS*

FUCKING ASSHOLE!

BYE

2011-06-21T09:26:00.000-07:00

Comparisons are easily done once you had a taste of perfection

犀利人妻 last episode really made me T_T
Not everything can be rewind.

Today had a conversation w Mummy again. I told her I want to go for a bank loan because I want to support myself.

Mum: Seriously you should go & reflect, why do you want to loan? I don't understand you.

Me: I feel so guilty.

Mum: Everytime you need money, you tell Mummy, Mummy sure give you money what plus this is education & it's the best assets we can give you. Idk whats wrong with you.

Me: & I am going to work this week already, my bkk trip don't want take money from you all also.

Mum: I still want to ask you want to come over stay w us anot!

Feel like hugging my mum immdiately. Why can't they scold me, slap me or stop supporting me. I feel very very touched cause I have my mummy as my mummy. Yea, I feel blissed to have her. Actually life is fair (: My mum dote on me, yes I have a complete family, but but, they don't spend time w me since young. So don't compare :)

I don't have parents who bring me for swimming lessons, to playground, to revise my work with me, to sign my results, to bring me for resturants during weekends. Even I have chickenpox I only have my maid to cook for me.

Yea, alot of my friends do say my mum is not bad. Like I talk to her like a friend yada yada. But she wasn't like that when I am young. I have curfews last time you know & no hanging out later than 10pm and can't go to friend birthday party when I am in my secondary school days =/ you imagine.

But now 360 degree changes idk why also.

There was once I went clubbing till morning & she wait for me & when I came home she made milo for me.

I really miss going salon w my parents. I love it when they look at me dye my hair. There was once I told dad I want to dye electric blue & he really believe me & told the hairstylist to dye for me. LOL. I miss the moment whereby dad would ask the chef to cook big portions of seafood because I am w them.

A few months ago, I hug Dad tightly & cried in the middle of Plaza Singapura because I was emotional & my make up stained on dad's shirt. I feel so secured for the first time in my life. Staying w parents is a blissful thing cause every parents love their children. Maybe their way of expressing themselves is different, but I believe deep down in their heart, it's us.

I feel so emotional now.

I love my parents.

w Love,
Vanessa

2011-06-20T11:28:00.000-07:00

興奮した ; independence

Don't look for a man who will add to your problems, find one who will share yours

Gonna mail chef ltr on, made up my mind already. I am happy she sees the potential in me on this field but I am tired & that's enough for me. You know what, I didn't regret my decision for going into culinery at all, at least I won't have any "what if(s) I am in the culinery field" anymore :)

I love cooking, but goodbye, nevertheless I will still cook. Will prepare food for xj birthday if she decided to hold her party on yatch & also settle food on c's 21st.

So please don't ask me if I quit anot. Yes, I had quit my school but still busy as I have tons of things to settle.

Dear chy,

" Thanks for being my best friend in this school & now we have quit together, I wish you all the best in hospitality! Also, not forgetting those memories during this intensive 7 months & we are supposed to be room-mates for US trip in a few weeks time :( Not forgetting having durian smoothie daily & practicing French together "

W love,

Varneh

my boyfee number 2.

2 monsters

Will upload JY birthday photo on fb. Waiting for joyce. Cold war w c but he come my house & tidy my room for me, blow dry my hair & act like nothing happen -.-''' Thanks for fetching me & my gfs home. You are the best okay! (at times)

I am so troubled :( I think I am gonna enroll in Newcastle as it's prestigeous but it cost ard 33K ++ & I no face take from parents. I feel like bank loaning secretly & pay off this debt myself but if they found out I am gonna be so dead. I just don't want to depend on them. Yes, I am a lucky kid.

Quit school twice like nobody's business & parents still being supportive. Yada, they are dissappointed that's normal la. I know dad wanna send me overseas to study nutrition but I don't want to spend his hard earn money.

Shall I just go for bank loan?

I am feeling so guilty! & dad don't want me to pay him back education fee in the future but mum says must buy her chanel bag.

Dad is going crazy btw.

Me: I am so busy & can't take the aggressive schedule so I want to quit school

Mum: I am so free & bored!

Me: Go shopping!

Mum: Weather here very hot!

Me: Take cab go shopping & cab back home!

Mum: Lazy!

(one too busy until cannot take it,one too free until cannot take it)

Poor dad!

I want to pay my university fees myself.

ありがとう
for reading

2011-06-17T23:10:00.000-07:00

I think only chy. knows what I am facing & tonight when the phone calls comes in tonight, I sure cried like a piece of shit again. Was out yesterday & 5am I was still tossing on my bed & what I hear was raindrops of myself.

No, nobody knows what exactly happens except chy & I did something yesterday. I should not kill myself this way, but at least I felt so much better. K said he was very upset seeing me doing this, & everyone felt the same way. Had a hug from Mel :) I was such a dissappointment.

Since school will be starting next year, I may fly off soonish & come back only next year.

Maybe this is be the best ending for both you & me (:

I left 48 hours & I will bid goodbye forever. At least chy knows the answer but I am still clueless. This week was a reflection & I still wished for a tight hug when I step out of the house, but deep down I know, it won't change anything. Let the words remain unsaid.

xoxo,

2011-06-15T11:12:00.000-07:00

Nobody understand how exactly I feel now, right now, I swear.

Define happy

2011-06-13T10:47:00.000-07:00

50 best antioxidant sources among commonly eaten foods

I am sure everyone is familar with this delicate fruit, I love stem strawberries but it's seasonal :C It taste somewhat different from korean strawberries which I usually would purchase & most importantly it's a. . .

How about munching this away instead of the usual chips?

Just melt some dark chocolate & start dipping in strawberries or mixed fruits

赞!

2011-06-12T08:57:00.000-07:00

最後に ; I gave up on my culinery studies

I cried over it. Call me a loser & yes I am. I am like graduate for 1 year & I am like hanging in the air going no where, useless. I dissapoint my parents again, for not able to complete a degree.

Me: Mummy, I can't complete my culinery studies, I kept falling sick dued to the hectic schedule. I am going back business but I don't want to waste anymore of your money. I can bank loan even I know you all can afford my studies.

Mum: I will support your decision, don't have to loan, I will pay whatever it takes as long as it's your education.

I cried so badly. First I wanted to quit RMIT for culinery & now I want to quit culinery for health and they support me all the way. They don't expect me to be 1st class honour or what, they just want me to complete my studies. & I can't even do it. I feel so terrible, I swear, I dissappoint them.

& fuck it, I swear when I go back business once again, I am gonna rock it & ace it. FYI, I really love cooking, but my body can't take it. Kept falling sick. Last chance, I will rock it.

For now I will find a part time job, no face to fly & visit parents also. I hate to be parasite la. & I will miss my good friends. I talked to Kai in fb just now & he made me feels like tearing up once again. Eventhough he is damn rich, he is damn humble. & once I was walking in the rain & suddenly I can't feel raindrops & when I turned my head to the right, he was holding umbrella for me & he himself soaked in rain.

I worked with him before & he always complained about me playing food so he have to wash extra plates. LOL, I broke the news to him that I am quitting. LOL. He told me he will wash every plate I played with doing plating, helped me cheat in test, help me do homework while I sleep.

He is the nicest guy I ever seen. & he treat everyone this good! Seriously, I would want my bff to marry somebody like him cause he is really nice. Next, I also want to thank brent for giving me a wake up call last week, saying if I missed wine lessons again he will screw me. Last but not least, my good friend cherie (: We can clique because we feel the same way over everything & I am sorry I can't be your room mate anymore for US trip.

No more school. Can somebody know how I feel exactly? I spend my weekends considering what I really want in life. Loser me.

Sure live on street w.o my parents.

Thanks c for being there for me :D I love it when u tuck me into bed, gave me a hug & kissed my forehead & told me everything is fine. even we argue like fuck, I want bangala to fuck you upside down and feels like slapping u all the time, I still love you.

xoxo,

loser me.

2011-06-05T03:24:00.000-07:00

信じる ; Is my decision right or wrong?

Biding "goodbye" needs hell lot of courage & I guessed I don't have the courage, yet. Being together isn't easy & simple as what I thought initially. Will truth leads to more trust or more lies? Can I really forgive & forget about this issue totally?

A twist of storyline changed everything.

Everything. . .

Can I really move on after everything that happen? I wished I could, but I need more time. I don't want to be blinded by love. Maybe afterall, this is not what I want, this is not something I would pursue & give my everything to. idk how come things turn out this way but I can only blame myself.

Maybe it lies with me. It's so true, just so true. the longer you are in a relationship, the clearer it becomes. I don't want to make the wrong move anymore (: I wish there can be a restart button, but i really don't know. . . Everything seemed uncertain. After all these, I realized I was wrong, there's no turning back.

Are all these really good enough for me? I really dk. Theres no way to fix back the trust I broke. I am prepared to face whatever consequences (: Love is hurt, love is hurt and still hurt. Happiness? idk.

I must be strong & I believe it will makes me stronger. I am always proud of you, because you are different, but the truth really hurt more than anything else. Idk who are you anymore.
誠實得過了頭　不能退後也無法向前走

Btw had a random gathering w BFFs yesterday. It was so last minute & happen that I am free. HEEHEE. At 5am, I bth & went to sleep, they left shortly after I think.

Well, I will try to stay home this couple of months & save for my BKK expenses. Actually it's worth it, example I save $30 for a bag, but at bkk, with the same amt of money, I can get 3. Sometimes I feel it's not right to keep taking money from parents already, since it's me who wants to go, I shall save real hard.

I hope I can save $300 next month & another $300 in august & I shall go flea & change my leftover HKD. It's my first time taking budget airline, but I can't wait. Also, apparels all under $10. I love super cheap yet nice clothes! & also I can't wait to eat cheap cheap food!

Ah. the cycle beging tommorow ;(

xoxo,

van

2011-05-30T04:05:00.000-07:00

BANGKOK! HERE I COME!

BOOKING LATER C:

Thanks xj for telling me to stay at baiyoke boutique! God damn pretty as seen on photos.

22nd - 25th August : Bangkok

25th August - september : School trip!

2011-05-28T23:02:00.000-07:00

ヌード ; Sunday

BOO! Bare face to scare you away. No make up nor editing nor photoshop :C Just me with bare face. I hope using artistry series will continue to make my skin glow & be flawless. But dark eyering circles is still bothering me :C oh well.

I am like kinda emotional this week. Idk why either but I am very very emotional.

Idk am I stress or what but I cried & cried sometime this week.

I am gonna buck up in garde manger cause it's my area of interest. Garde Manger is producing very very exquisite food & each food comes in mini portion. Me love. My dream wasn't to be a chef, my dream was to do something I really love C:

& I discussed with Mummy already, so maybe after grad I will return to rmit to get a marketing degree so I will have double degree. Lets see how life takes me to. & clement is also gonna take business management at SIM! & he said can drive me to school & better still if we are studying same degree I want to be his lifetime groupmate!

WHAHAHAHA. So I can be free rider & asked him to do everything for me & also teach me everything because his results are far better than mine. LOL. This is all just thoughts C:

& was talking w Prof on friday he asked me prepare 2K US to shop why? Because coach wristlet cost $19.90 ONLY! wtshit. & levis jeans $19.90, wtfuck, I ama gonna shop like mad. 2K isn't enough for me, I ama gonna ask from Parents. && I ama going to shop at katespade & I heard GAP shirt 9.90$USD, fuckkkkk.

& I heard burberry cheap also. I want gucci belt & gucci shoeee pls. & Oakley sunglasses also cheap like mad, omg, hope got Dior & cheap gucci sunglasses. Coach sunglasses sure cheap like hell, Iama gonna getttt gettt gettt! Sorry but I very very excited, counting down 10 weeks moreeeee.

& VICTORIA SECRET! tor long I can fully utilize all my money in 1 month. & I think they driving to LA for more entertainment. Can somebody kill me. Anything just tell me, I can help u all buy :)

Please don't think I am a parasite but I can't work based on my circumstances right?

I ama going out later after doing assignments ;C

xoxo,

excited meee

2011-05-23T05:58:00.000-07:00

I am happy, for now.

Plate this out cause I was way too bored. LOL.

Today sth happened which made me rant like crazy. Firstly, I just hope that you can don't be so sensitive & keep having issues with me. tyvm. Excuse moi, who wants to flirt w your bf? Kept ranting non-stop to c, he came to fetch me today & we go IKEA have my favv hotdog bun :D

SLAPS FOREHEAD*

U are driving me mad. Really. Please get things clear first alright? TY.

Maybe meeting bambi lens owner tmr to collect my brown lens. I left $80++ to survive until 31st june. I shall eat at food junction every now & then & take bus. No more buying of clothes but I saw one bucket bag, so vintage soohhhhhh nice, omg, $20++ ;( from xoxoho.

I feel soo tempted ttm :(

& ytd I am suppose to go cynthia birthday at sentosa siloso beach hotel & the theme is pajamas & guessed what, I am at home doing history. yada yada, boring life. & I slept at 2am. This weekend I wanna go shop at flea :D I love flea.

I am turning in after doing my history. KILL MEEEEEEE pleaseeee.

2011-05-22T08:09:00.000-07:00

怒って ; Clement Heng Bitch

I didn't know I love thai food so much (: Had thai food last friday with suwitra, kim, zanah & cherie qq & had it again with c the following day. Love the sweet n sour grouper.

Both of my bambi lens not yet arrive, pissed. & thanks to my butter fingers I dropped my anna sui secret wish on the floor & oh well it broke. I only used less than 1/3 of the bottle. So I literally see 50 bucks dropped & evaporate into the air. Mine is the 75ml somemore. knn.

Oh well, nvm, hope c buy Gucci flora for me. Last week he asked if I want cause he is buying for me & stupid me said no. I can go bang the wall. I don't care, I want. && I am also into OPI nail polish esp black shatter. Considering to get Pirates of carribean limited ed. set.

So this week must confirm about my trip. So I am planning to go HK> Sanfran > LA.

Idk if I am extending anot. If not extending to go Las Vagas & LA, I will fly back earlier & go BKK w twi. HK is confirmed & I will meet my classmates at HK airport & fly to US. C is coming to HK with me I think, if cherie n socks coming then I replan. Else I will stay at dad place.

I am not sure to extend anot because it's god damn dangerous & i dowan to risk my life. But I am so going to the factory outlets :D Coach, katespade, urban outfitter please wait for me. Can't wait to get myself coach shoe, katespade bag, forever 21, HnM, victoria secret. . wanna go jalan jalan.

& juicy couture gadgets. I shall enjoy life to fullest soon, minusing meeting at lobby everymorning at 8.30am, kns. I am still deciding if I shall go LA because I wanna go hollywood & disneyland there. & need to confirm with them soon. fml.

Alright, I gtg sleep already. Hi bitch, it's monday.

=.=

2011-05-15T06:17:00.000-07:00

私は知っている; you are the reason I smile

I am broke for this month because I spend on Bambi Lens. Ordered bambi brown and bambi green designed by TSUBAKI C: it's inspired from disney bambi character, how cool can that be!

The website state that it's shipped but I haven't receive.

I love her. Her baby iss soo cute aww. I also want to be a pretty mummy like her in the future
:D Everyday put on fake lashes & drive my kids to school.

The green it's pretty. 3 tone somemore. Freshkon lens are way too dry for me & freshlook ones are too small as the diameter only 13.8mm whereas my current lens are 16mm.

BREAKFAST CLASS

I am eating all these (below) daily. I love breakfast classes because it's fun but classes starts at 7am, wahlau eh. Need to save up for cab fare for june as nobody sending me to school. Punch myself for being at module 2 else can drive to school when Bro go korea. Alright, shall work super duper hard to support myself & my parents next time.

I must study hard to get myself out of poverty. Don't want depend on parents anymore.

Breakfast bar daily. Stupid mum says she lazy go my school makan food cook by me.

School is tough as usual. 7am to 7pm. U can take it? Having lessons from Monday to Saturday isn't easy. & I have a weaker immune system than others. fml much. Dad says if I feel tired then skip school & if I can't catch up slowly take my time to complete the course, repeat modules also nevermind :D aww~

So i must work doubly hard & prove him wrong, I will score & excel!

Yesterday I went for wine class & I can't open the wine cock as it required loads of energy, but thanks to all my helpful classmates & giving me much support I manage to pop open. C says he will teach me. Yesterday C told me he can't book out this week & I was emo-ing to my classmates.

When I am walking out of school I saw him driving in. WHAHAHAHA. Thanks for fetching. On wednesday after french class I was walking out of school & I saw him again (: He book out for an hour & got me pink cardigan. aww. So I treat him marvelous ice cream (biggest portion somemore okay) at ION (:

Next week you book out for one week make sure you fetch me home daily ah!

Suddenly it reminds me of you sending/fetching me to school daily when you are not in army.
Helping me to collect my artistry skincare & writing on notepad on how to use my skincare.
Putting tissue pack into my bag because I always forgot to.
Coming my house to iron my clothes & put my soiled clothes into the washing basket
& rushing over from work to visit me because I am having fever
& you decided not to work so you can give me the time
. . .

Memories never fail to make me smile

Maybe god knows nobody have been taking great care of me since young, thats why.

@ ION yesterday.

Queued for fucking 45 minutes.

No editing to all the pictures.

I how cui i look

WHAHAHA, acting chio.

Joyce say no comments on the hello kitty photo. KNS.

Alright, sorry for the picture spam of myself. LOL.

I need to go cityplaza this week.
I need to go buy cleanser this week.
I need to study for several test this week.
I need to buy Iphone cover this week
I need to collect my black shatter OPI this week.
I need to rest.

Last sunday I took my cooking exam whereby I need to memorize 200 questions & I will be asked, lucky i got 1 mistake only but I assumed I failed my cooking terribly. Kar nin nahs.

Because I served late
Because my pasta was too thin
Because my vegetable was too soft (but mind you its my first time doing this recipe)
So unlucky of me to kena saute chicken & lentil soup.

I aimed to get 90 marks but thanks so some selfish asshole I was late terribly & also you leave your things at my station expect who to clean for you? I am not your maid. It may slipped your mind but it's not my problem. I am not a bitch but I have issues with you. & mind your attitude when talking to me (: I pay school fees to learn from chef not to learn from you.

Don't ask me questions like " ARE U GONNA DO THIS"? & stare at me, or don't say "YOU KNOW WE START AT 7am"? that kind of questions. I am not refering to anybody in paricular but I just don't like it. I know we start at 7am but I still want to come at 11am, what can you do? LOL. You can remind, but mind your tone leh k.

If you are that fab, we won't be holding the same responsibilities.

I can be nice (& really nice) to my friends, I bear no grudges but I hope some people can respect me as much as I respect them.

&&& bestie kiat called me that day, soo HAPPY, hope & are doing well, I am counting down to your return even now no chance talk to u. me hearts you many many many.

I miss my friends alot, hope to do a mini gathering at my house. MJ session :D

xoxo,
vanny

2011-05-09T06:03:00.000-07:00

静けさ

Imagine going to school on a sunday ;(

Imagine having school from 7am to 7pm daily ;(

Why can't my school be 3 or 4 years, why must it be 2 years? I felt kinda unfair because I feel we must enjoy the things we do which includes studying. I know some needs to pay off the loan after grad, but it's about enjoying & having ample rest right? BIG SIGH*

Need to get over this hell term & 1.5 years to go & I can go enjoy. Actually I really dk what I want to do in the future. But for now, I just want to fly back to china & enjoy life with parents. I miss my bedroom, my wardrobe, my personal bathroom, my dressing table ;( even my iron is pink in colour.

& now it's left vacant ;(

& for june, Bro & family flying to Korea, Mum flying back to accompany daddy & MY MAID FLYING BACK HOMETOWN FOR HOLIDAY.

& I AM LEFT ALONE :((( If it's holiday nvm, i go clubbing everyday, but hell no.

Means I MUST vacuum floor

Means I must wash my own clothes

Means I must throw rubbish daily

Means I must dry my clothes

ON TOP OF my busy schedule!!!

Clement please come help me iron clothes, change printer ink, pack my bedroom like you used to? I hire you lah kayyx :X Mum ask me put my clothes in freezer & walk with shoes at home until maid comes back. WTHECK.

Alright, mini ranting done. feel so much better.

xoxo,

busy girl.

Sorry if I didn't reply all msg(es). Busy until only eat 1 meal today. U imagine. .

2011-05-05T03:13:00.000-07:00

Seriously I hate it when people misunderstood me, who the hell in the right mind like it anw? But I won't bother to explain anything anymore. Need to contact suping to get back my things urgently but she didn't go fb & I kept checking fb whole day to check if she is there. Lucky there is sth called twitter.

& something happenned again. Fuck all this shit. I don't want to say anything anymore.

. . .

& I am sure there will be this particular person who will add salt & vinegar when she knew what happen. I don't give a fuck alright? Just want to be happy from today onwards.

2011-05-02T22:44:00.000-07:00

ただの夢; Just a Dream

Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see
(this beautiful song made me tear)

Rapellez
(I did my pampering session w beloved miao)

What more can I say about the cosy environment?

Had couple room w miao C:

We did hydration treatment.

Will be going back in 2 weeks time for our next treatment.

料理の
School

(skills 3)

I really love how the green contrast with those red peppers

Beef Stew

Chunky beef cubes w grilled bak choy. Those beef cubes are tender to the bite & the best thing is they all tasted flavourful

Cream of mushroom

Consome

(Clear soup)

Headed down to TOTTS to get my jamon

I either used as salad toppings or I eat as snack.

Jamon is a smoked shoulder ham. It literally melt into your mouth when u popped a thin slice in. How wonderful is that.

Hello kitty tatoo. How cute :D

Before heading out to have dinner. . .

NOM NOM NOM

Everyweek I would head down to this Japanese store at the central to get all these snacks, eating is such a bliss.

This is highly recommended @ TCC. Forgot the name, but it's worth every cent. Go try it man.

Maybe as I mentioned, too much things happened. I just dk how to start. Oh well, sometimes in life you can't have everything or the best out of everything, but at least you can do something that can make everyone feels better & I mustn't be selfish anymore.

Maybe I just don't deserve certain things :S

Money can't buy everything, I don't need a bf that is very rich actually, but somebody who would do anything for me. Somethings I really can't accept & never will.

Back to topic, dad came back last week & flew off this morning & the worst thing is when he passed me extra allowances secretly, mum saw it :((((( & the worst thing about my mum knowing is she will checked my account so I don't overspend.

Actually mum thinks I can survive on my basic allowances, but no, I survive on my extra allowances dad gave me secretly because it's normally double of my basic. LOL. So now you know how come I can survive after maintaining my this fugly face.

I was complaining about my fugly small eyes & dad asked me to go plastic surgery for double eyelid as well as lasik for eyes. I am still thinking. & he meant it, so yea, I will consider about it. Can I have a nose surgery also?

Hope this week pass slowly because it's my holiday for the year, pathatic one week.

12 weeks of HELL

7am-7pm of school

includes saturday

(horrified*)

& I be at california for 1 month. Mum was shocked when I told her how much does this compulsory school trip cost. It better be good.

I shall have plenty of rest this week before the horrifying school term start. I know I didn't reply msg(es) or pick up phone calls. Please understand my hectic schedule :D

The samantha thavasa wallet haven't come ;( the person didn't call me yet.

I am crying as I blogged cause . . .

& I didn't forget the issue. I am just thinking whether to leave a scar on your leg or hand, or maybe you prefer hospital as your 2nd home (: Wait for me baby, someday I will get you & I will haunt you. . just wait. This is the consequences I will make you pay :)

xoxo,

私

2011-04-30T09:48:00.000-07:00

Somethings are just not meant to be (:

I need to accept this fact. Will blog about facial w miao & tmr gonna cook for beloved Daddy. Salad Greens + Onion soup w croutons + Snapper + Roast Chicken + Japanese Fried Rice

Was standing in rain today & I think I am catching a cold now. I am hungry & need a cup of brown sugar ginger badly. Fuck all the childish nonsense.

2011-04-24T05:58:00.000-07:00

ピンク泡立つ

Menu Project
French Paper
Psychology Paper
Kitchen skill test

kill me please?

2011-04-20T08:03:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, my love

First of all, I wanna say Happy Birthday to my beloved twinnies, my bitchy friend, moi ah lian & last but not least, my BFF.

I won't forget how I spend this 8 years with her & still counting. I thank god for giving me such precious gift to me C: She is the one & only girl that I will texted whenever "major events" occurs. I feel there is a strong bond between us and perhaps because of this special bond, we cliqued well.

I knew for the past 3 years things aren't going smooth but I believed it made us mature & grow. No matter what, you know I will stand by you.

No matter how busy I am, I will still find time for you.

Find me & I will be there for you :)

All the best for the future endeavours.

WITH ENDLESS LOVE,

twinniesarelove

2011-04-17T06:45:00.000-07:00

愛の夢; Lazy Sunday

Girls want a guy who finds them beautiful when they are in sweat, no make up and their hair's in a messy bun C:

可愛い

スープ

Chicken Stock + Brazil Prime Pork Ribs + Carrots + Shitakae Mushrooms + Corn

AWESOME

Woke up early to cook this C: Maybe if I am in a good mood I may cook a main course or something.

Hair become ash already C: Love it, but looked super lian :( Going Supercut this week to trim my hair. Me hates frizzy hair.

C_C

Pink Leather Strap for my Cammy :D Thanks C.

Bought Polarioid album in nude pink (: aww. I pay myself :D

Love the feeling of waking up naturally & with pink walls, pink towel & pink rosy quilt surrounding me. I am contented easily.

I feel abit insane also.

it's Friday & everyone was asking where I be heading. I replied "home" & it gaves everyone much surprise. Oh well, spend most of my time at home this weekend to recharge myself. Slept until 12.30pm today & can sleep longer if my maid didn't come into my room & hang my clothes in wardrobe -.-

Oh well, I feel more recharge having to stay home & watch Scv & maybe going for dinner & supper. I am looking forward to good Friday because I want to rest at home. Waking up at 6am daily & stand until noon isn't easy, but it makes me stronger & more discipline with my life. Having to sleep at 10pm on a saturday night feels really great.

I am starting to drink more water, eat vitamin supplements daily, tc of my skin & my health.

Maybe when I rested enough, I will revert back to my old lifestyle but it's bad :C

I love to cook & it makes me a much happier person. I don't do my things because I have to but I am doing things because I love to. Mustn't give up 努めて!

I want to watch movie next week

I want to go the central buy my Japanese food barangs barangs

I want to go cityplaza shop for new clothes

I want to go town to shop for new shoe

I want to go flea to buy OPI

I want to go Parkway eat steamboat

I want to cut my hair at N.E.X

I want to go facial

Boring life plan as for next week. Feels like clubbing soon.

2 days ago I went into a lift & this girl delibrately pressed the close button, and when her bf is coming out of the lift on the next level, he actually "TSK" at me for blocking his way. Well, shouldn't say anything more to degrade myself as that schmuck dk how to open his mouth to even say excuse me. LOL, why not go get a private elevator?

&& before I forgot, I personally feels that a girl should not pay anything for a guy. Maybe once or twice but not always (: I can't accept if a girl needs to pay cab fare for a guy or pays for the meal? Sorry, but thats my point of view after hearing some stories.

A man must have the ability to pay for his own expenses. Imagine my face if I need to pay for a guy? LOL, sorry, no way & get out of my way. But if that guy it's my husband & touch wood he goes bankrupt, I will pay for him.

xoxo

私

Never ever fall for me

2011-04-12T23:05:00.000-07:00

愛を飛んで; 困らせる

Every happy couple has at least one breakup behind them

恋

School

Last 3 weeks of school before the pathatic 1 week holiday break :C Mummy may come back to accompany me go bkk cause I never go bkk before. Well, this 3 weeks is cooking for public that includes main course, side dish & soup C: & the best damn thing is it's free for this 3 weeks. Still got free flow peach tea :D I know you gonna think that the food will be yucky :(

Guessed what?

Roast Chicken done by lao niang's group

Potato Ducheese

So if you want to come down have a meal just tell me C: It's free.

So much things happened recently. idk where to start with, but for the person who hecked into my account I swear by my name I won't let you go. No matter how close you are to me, you better watch out. I see you can go home safely anot C: I am tracking you down u pcb.

& yea, I am not giving clement face this time. Anything I can give in but not this. Go see my fb message somemore C: You messing with me? LOL. Lets see who will have the last laugh? Maybe if clement buy me the pink wallet I will let you go. Nah, I am just kidding.

That day I was having tummy cramp & clement helped me cook brown sugar & ginger water at 3am. Thanks (: I really not feeling well & the doctor insisit that I am pregnant & asked if I have got active sex life anot? WTF. Mummy laughed like hell.

&& my friend also say my Gucci wallet fake. ya, I admit I look like ah lian, but doesn't mean I am pregnant & carry fake branded what! Stereotype.

Love this photo so much because I only have foundation on. So not fake (: Sometimes I wish I have a simple life & not going out until morning during weekends. I am tired, I want to do nothing.

さようなら

xoxo 私

2011-04-05T05:01:00.000-07:00

ピンクの愛; Samantha Thavasa

サマンサタバサ

I want to get this real badly :( Finally this Japan Brand is in town.

Hope it don't cost more than $250 for the extreme right one.

aww~

Prays hard there are instocks cause I am free only on weekends.

Samantha. T or Dollywink I choose this

Samantha.T or Gucci wallet I choose this

Samantha. T or boyfriend?

I choose wallet.

heeheehee

(O^^O)

x.o.x.o

2011-04-03T10:03:00.000-07:00

ドラマ ; Drama

失われた愛と

Today marked the most dramatic life of mine that you wouldn't want to imagine. My life is like a series of drama. School will be done by 12pm tommorow & I am looking forward to good friday.

Time to rest & hibernate after staying out late for the past 3 days :(

Time to do some shopping this weekends & some pool please? I am so into pool. & not forgetting those photos in my cammy that I need to upload to fb as alot people is cursing & swearing at me.

& I miss you singkiat ho loves loves! I will make sure I go msn this week. heehee.

Just want a simple life C:

2011-03-27T10:51:00.000-07:00

終わらない愛; Story ended

You held my arm asking if I really want to leave & I replied yes. Maybe I won't be able to find a guy that is as nice as you anymore. I won't.

Nobody will bring me to doctor when I am having fever, cook me porride and help me decrease my temperature using cold towel & running out of my room & the kitchen. Nobody will get me supper at 3am 4am if I am hungry, buy me everything & also fetch me home (no matter how late, no matter how far I am).

& of course nobody will wake up at 7am & come see me sleep.

Nevertheless I will keep all these memories & buried them deep inside my heart (:
I left because you love me too much. Sorry for everything, I tried my best already.

Bought katy perry teenage dream OPI yesterday, colour was so nice. Want to buy whole set but sold out. fml.

:(((

2011-03-24T07:52:00.000-07:00

ラブストーリー ; Broken Smile

Please forgive my love that i've realize is not enough
I love you

Knew something today. I will take all means to turn back the clock if I could. Only if I could.

I won't be rebellious anymore

I won't be stubborn anymore

I will study extra hard to make you proud

Nothing in the world hurt more than this. I could gave up anything for the most important man in my life. Hug you so tight because I don't want you to leave.

Don't say goodbye, don't leave me now
we can fight through any struggle
Cause you are my everything to me

Love always,

2011-03-20T08:57:00.000-07:00

傷つける ; Mini Updates

Currently Listening to 林俊傑 - 愛笑的眼睛

再見到你

我一定讓自己

假裝很堅定

Dinnered at this place I forgot where with twins, peri peri chicken is god damn yammehh.

Thank you girls (: sweet.

@ supercut w DD pieces. Scalp treatment was really good.

I nearly went berserk looking at it. Can my proposal flower in the future made of dollywink lashes? I love dollywink イシャドウ

My soft spot is dollywink. Please don't launch more new things because I think my bank account is going to be in decimal places soon. LOL.

No more thick make up (: Natural is nice.

Making pasta in process.

All carrots must be in 3mm x 3mm x 1.5mm I think. LOL.

My 1st cut in the kitchen. fml. Must maintain smooth smooth skin.

Exam piece.

Medium rare beef.

Another soft spot.

Dad is back. So happy happy. Celebrated his birthday at Tung Lok Orchard Central. He gave me the one & only strawberry. heehee.

Me: ehh, when coming back accompany me eat durian?

Dad: Soon okay?

Me: Okay

After 5 minutes

Dad: I coming back later!! Book midnight flight already.

Me: omfg.
I love my dad. He will be flying back in 3 days time ;(

Ate ice cream at Udders Novena w Family.
Something FML happened.

There is an audi parked behind our car.

Me: Mum, later I drive you home, my white car soo CHIO RIGHT

&&& it belongs to the rich kid & his gf & he is seating right beside my table. FMLLLL. So malu kuku bird. Texted clement & he laughed out. I hate you.

My daily skincare (: Not including cleanser & mask.

My aim in life is to be a very young looking Mummy. Imagine I drive sport car then bun my hair w big big sunglasses (from thailand also nvm), n light make up & carry my son with one hand & wear high heels. OMG right. Happenning lor. Then when my handsome son grew up I go shopping with him. teedee.

Okay la, I am dreaming.

Friday Night

Went Marcus bro pub w my bffs. Super duper bad mood so drink alot & ya la, puked. I sure look fugly i tellll u ;(( & I cried because xiao jing & joyce nvr bring me go club. wtfff??? Thanks all for taking care of me, xiao jing your boobs quite comfy to lie on :D Raise eyebrow*

I rmb-ed i kissed joy.

MISERABLE

Don't ask me why cause I may breakdown sooner or later. Just let nature takes it course. Thanks Jonathan for giving me advice. Only I can help myself. Only me. Running away won't help. It's complicated.

&& I don't understand why people like to poke me in fb. Lame. Pissed.

Party next week (: Can't wait. I am gonna wear ripped jeans with wedges. Act chio only. I know. Tmr it's monday, going SIT to pay school fees.

SIT: there is an overdued charge of $10 because you didn't pay in time

Me: wtfuck, last time I pass them cheque they reject because people pay through CPF. wtfuck then now come tax on me. kubye. Make my life difficult only.

xoxo,

Vanessa

I LOVE MY PINK HELLO KITTY COVER. & THE OWNER OF BLACK KITTY COVER, I don't understand alot of things (:

2011-03-16T08:10:00.000-07:00

怒って

I HATE TODAY
FML
ASK ME DON'T NEED ATTEND PSYCHOLOGY CLASS IF I CONTINUE USING MY PHONE
,
BUT I AM HERE TO BE A CHEF? YES?

FRENCH ORAL TEST
KITCHEN PRACTICAL TEST ON 8 TOURNES POTATOES WITHIN 30 MINUTES
KITCHEN SKILL TEST

PLEASE LET ME GET OVER & DONE FOR THIS WEEK

I need KOI
I need KOI
I need KOI
I need KOI
I need KOI

Pissed. I am not gonna be a saint & send my assignment to help you anymore CAUSE I HAD ENOUGH AND been taken granted for. This is university, you need sleep so am I kay. I am willing to help & teach you how to source for solutions, BUT don't ask me HOW to when I gave u the answer.

FRIDAY PLEASE COME BABY.

2011-03-13T08:55:00.000-07:00

願いと祈り ; Busy

曾為他相信明天就是未來
情節有多壞都不肯醒來

Friday: Sheesha (: In house Magician was awesome & he is quite famous in Singapore (: Dannykoh. He thought me & twins are Japanese? LOL.

Heart to heart talk with her. LOVE :D Thanks for the present dearest!

Saturday: Finally got the time to go Supercut @ NEX & do treatment (:

Sunday: Did alot of things, initially wanted to go M's pub because today it's his pub official opening! But I am so so so busy. Shall bring gfs go this weekend (: He said he will reserve sofa seat for me :D

Clement bring me butter cookies he self-made early in the morning. Super yummy! Thanks thanks thank! & thanks for buying me dollywink eyeshadow & gliter base. Sold out in many place ;(((( U are my best friend forever!

I don't want to spend you money anymore :D

I don't even have time to go buy my skincare products ;( BUSY BUSY! But mummy sponcering me toner, eye cream & polishing scrub. Happy ttm la.

My skin is improving & I love my bare face :D

& I shall go get my I-phone hello kitty pink cover next week. Matt bought one hello kitty casing for me but not in pink ;(( But it's cute thou. But I love the pink kitty casing moreee :DDDD

Next weekend I must upload photos to fb & do a skincare review on what I am using in case it helps some of you all (:

love yo,

Vanny

2011-03-08T02:54:00.000-08:00

悲しみに満ちた ; what are words

You are making me crazy

I am thinking of you each & every minute

You are so near yet so far

When can I touch & feel you

I really want you badly but I can't

When can you come to me baby?

I AM TALKING ABOUT DOLLY WINK EYESHADOW (:

It's making me crazy, singapore haven't launched this in market yet. fml. Should I order from Japan? It's available in pink ( spring colours) & earth colours which i hearts the most.

If one day you tell me dollywink launching at singapore & I've got a major test in school. .

I WILL GO FOR MY DOLLYWINK (: This is how I love gyaru make up.

& yes, give me sometime to upload photos in fb kay? Talked to Miao ytd & rant to her. LOL, partner sheng made me laughed too. Me hearts both of you deep deep la.

pissed day.

xoxo,

Vanessa

2011-03-06T00:04:00.000-08:00

弱い ; Sunday

I fainted at home yesterday. FML. Just black out & next thing I woke up lying on the floor. kns.

Nowadays life is so hectic. On Friday after school bro came and fetch me home & I rushed for wedding dinner. Nearly slept there ;(

Lucky Bro send me to school everyday so I can wake up at 6am :D

Photos not edited (: Cam-whoring omw to wedding.

Roll dough & hand made pasta this week. SO fun!

Ribbon pasta by me (:

This egg pudding by me (:

I seriously can't imagine me being a chef (: OMG, I AM A CHEF???

LOL.

Alot people say I look more like art student or business but not chef. LOLLLL-ed.

Okie dokie, I shall go do my homework & rush to another wedding dinner later. love love.

Something happened made me so dulan & I complained omw home on Friday. zzz.

Me: Mum, did u roll your eyes?

Mum: Sorry, I don't even bother to roll.

Me: Kns la, somebody so hao lian one, she think she what mehhhhhhh

Mum: Heck care

xoxo,

Vanny

2011-02-27T20:12:00.000-08:00

失望した ; Dissappointed

Talked to Clement's Mummy yesterday & she said to be life long partners, we have to give & take. I agree. Nice her still send down Clement's i-phone to my house as my phone is abit hay-wire already. I am thinking to get I-phone 3/4 this week, or blackberry?

Damn touched because Clement's Mum & sis gave me birthday present & their handmade card. & there written, with love, Michelle (Clement's Mum), Rox & Evan.

I think our problems is beyond just give & take. I want to be single. Clement is nice I admit, infact this kind of guys extinct already, virgin & quite gentleman. But I am stressed up, I am tired sustaining this relationship. Treat it as I am running away.

Why do I keep texting when I am with you?

Next week I have to attend church wedding. I am asking XXX to go with me (: & we shall go eat Japanese food. Started to text with XXX to crap & ya, at least there is somebody to crap with me so much & I am looking forward to go supper with him. Initially ytd wanted to meet him but I went for class bbq & he sleep until . . .

Don't ask me why.

Don't ask me anything.

Don't tell me anything about Clement.

I just want to be alone in my comfort zone as for now.

Recieved Jay text-before he went outfield. I won't let you know the content because I don't to quarrel anymore. Some words are better to leave unsaid. As miao miao say, whatever it is, I still have them (:

xoxo,

Vanessa

2011-02-25T09:04:00.000-08:00

病気の

你的香味一直徘徊　
我捨不得離開

Yesterday was my birthday, even many of you think I went out to celebrate & skip school, I got nothing to say. I am sick & got 2 days MC.

Doctor tested my blood pressure & it dropped even it haven't hit 50 and he gave me that shocked face. He pump & pump but my blood pressure still under 50.

fml fml fml.

Today something happen & I just ran out of the kitchen crying. First few dishes excellent & last one zero marks.

Had super long chat w Cherie afterschool.

Went town today, (like finally). Went to Far East to have Jap but food served was CRAP. THEY SERVED ME SPOILT SASHIMI. fml.

How can they serve something which has gone through temperature abused & expect me to eat?

wtfuck

Waitress: Hi, I took out your sweet shrimps sashimi, you can try the salmon sashimi cause the sweet shrimps not fresh

Me: Hello, you expect me to eat the sashimi on the same plate? Bacteria multiply like crazy and you want me to eat? Hello, I AM A CHEF KAY?

& they waived off the bill.

IT'S LIKE I AM NOT PAYING PEANUTS, THE PRICE THERE IS SAME AS ION ONE AND THE SERVE ME CRAP. PAMELA STILL CAN SAY NEVERMIND. BUT HELLO? I ATE ONE MOUTH & I PUKE LIKE CRAZY, IMAGINE I ATE THE WHOLE PLATE, IT'S NOT ABOUT ME MAKING THINGS DIFFICULT, BUT EVEN THE WAITRESS KNOWS THE SHRIMP NOT FRESH? & THE CHEF, IDK WAD KIND OF CHEF IS HE, SERVING SPOILT FOOD.

ANGRY TO THE MAX.

APPRENTLY FROM RECEIVING TO STORAGE, SOMETHING WENT WRONG. & THINK I LOOK BIMBO ISIT, SO I TALK CHIM TO THEM. WHAT I LEARN LAST MONTH APPLY TO TODAY CASE. I NEARLY WANTED TO TALK SANITIZATION TO THEM.

Waitress: You have to pay for the salmon sashimi

Me: I won't pay for it. IF YOU CAN SERVE ME UNFRESH FOOD, HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO BELIEVE THE SALMON IS FRESH? AND WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT THIS BATCH IS SAFE WHEN THEY ARE BEING PROCESSED AT THE SAME TIME?

Pamela: Nevermind la van

Me: HELLO? YOU TRY EATING & I SEE TONIGHT YOU GO HOSPITAL ANOT. TRUST ME, THE SASHIMI SMELL BAD OK? I DON'T EVEN WANT TO COMMENT ABOUT APPEARANCE PLEASE -.-

I am very very particular on food, especially sweet shrimps.

Imagine I block nose & ate the whole plate, please visit me tommorow with " get well soon" balloon & peel fruits for me. tyvm. LOL.

& sometimes if a person body have reactions towards the food, it may caused shortness of breathe (which it happen to me before & went hospital -.-) and the consequences is severe kay.

chef with no intergrity doesn't fit to be a chef at all.

2011-02-23T03:42:00.000-08:00

ドロップアウト; Feels like Crying

I have been sick, then recover slightly & fever again. But I still have to go to school & wake up at 5am daily. & guessed what, I sleep for 4 hours daily.

I don't mind all this hardship, I really don't, because I love cooking & yes, I have a strong passion for it & I feel really happy when chef marked my dish as excellent.

Today I got home, Mum asked me to drop out of school.

Because of my health. Having insufficent rest & no proper lunch break daily really makes her heartache. She now woke up before 5am to cook bf for me & now she even wash all my bowls for me for dinner & pour water for me when I am doing homework.

Mum knows it's my passion & she saw everything, but she feels I should care about my failing health now. fml. she even asked me to retain.

& everyday she asked " how long more can your body take it"?

At home, I don't do any chores except washing my personal bowl for dinner. But in kitchen I do alot alot of washing, scrub this, wipe that, stand for long hours, but I didn't complain once to her at all because it's my passion.

She asked me to drop out, but what am I gonna do now. I mean I am lucky to pursue something I love, but my health is really failing. Fever, flu & muscle ache, despite all this, I can stand long hours at kitchen standing strong (: But ya, I know I am not alright. I am not kb-ing about how I suffered beause to me it's not even suffering.

I am so confused now.

Drop out or not? Health or passion? I really dk.

Me: Mum, why not I go for august intake & holiday this half year doing nothing?

Mum: The problem is, even now you rest, when school reopens you will faced the same old problem.

Yes, my weight is decreasing. ( don't comment, ttvm) Because I haven't been resting well nor eat well. it's a 4 years course and downsizing to 2 years & I HAVE TOPPED UP modules to do, meaning I have to do more work than others.

Damn fucked up because the system is so bad that it keeps log me out & I can't deliver my assignment on time & kena kb-ed by the United State Lecturer there. kns. But really thanks to my mum for the support because she knew I tried my best already & telling me GPA doesn't matter.

My school policy states that we can't miss school for more than 2 times even we have MC, but Mum says if I really cannot take it, just rest. aww.

I really love cooking & I will really be sad if I can't complete my course ;(((

Just kill me, kill me, kill me.

2011-02-18T19:42:00.000-08:00

Saturday; 眠い

Slept for around 18 hours (: You can imagine how tired I am. STFU if you dk I must wake up at 5am for school daily. Nice mum wake up earlier than me to prepare bf for me C: & I fell sick this week & mum asked me if I want to take a break from studies because she is very concern.

But bro & dad says if she is so protective, I won't learn & grow up -.-

From next week onwards I am gonna chiong my driving because I am at last module already. Because bro buying car this week, so if say on weekends they are driving the family car, nobody will use the new car & I shall borrow (:

& sometimes I shall drive to school :D Happy to the max.

But mum says I need to drive her around ;(( omg, I shall aim to get car liscence by this june.

:DDDD

2011-02-13T22:24:00.000-08:00

Pink 21st

First of all, I want to thank all of those who came down. I appreciate it alot because I am sure you guys prepare, put on make up. . . etc etc. Thank you.

Secondly, I want to thank Qiu Miao especially for helping me settle so many things. From buying cookies, to packaging it, to placing on the desk. Looking around for my cake on Friday & organizing my gift. LOVE MUCH* MUACKS.

Of course not forgetting several people like Joice who overslept, but nvm, LOL, at least she help me print " Thanks for coming" & help me alot on scrap book. Next, Xiao Jing, for helping me hang up this & that, very steady when I call her for help. MUACKS*

& of course shipei for lending me her polariods, vday cookies & buy flims for me. Thanks alot alot.

Last but not least, my boyfriend, who helped me the whole day. Settling my ballon, collecting tarts, collecting my cake because marcus was drunk & overslept. & coming to my house to collect stools, serving my guest. & not forgetting the precious present from baby (: He didn't sleep that night, I knew he was there looking at me sleep & ensure that I slept well because some point at a time, miao was drunk & came crashing on the bed & I can feel joyce the bitch squeezing my body when I am sleeping. LOL.

Don't make me say that 2 words joyce.

Also Papa for calling me in the morning saying sorry he can't attend my birthday cause of work. but nvm, he sponcered necklace & place & food & invasilign for me. Mama is treating relative next week to seafood resturant for my birthday & sis for sponcering the cake (which I HATED UNTIL NOW) for me.

Bro can't attend my Brithday, yes, but I don't care, I just want it to be on 12th.

Well, I am happy that everything turns out well. I am sorry if I ordered not enough pizza. But there are 2 large pizza left over for the night. Well, I will be more than happy to order, but don't keep asking & asking me. I have alot of guest & yes, I am ordering. Give me one moment please?
But ya. who knows I broke down trice that day? LOL. Behind the scene I guessed. Not to gain sympathy not act pity, but I feel certain remarks wasn't fair to me.

Thanks xj & miao for consoling me whenever I am crying & fixing my dollywink.

Well, I confirmed 12th of february on december. which is 2 months ago. Time is stated there. Yes, I admit that changes were made in between, but I had my reasons.

But I did confirmed Marriot at 6pm. I did.

I didn't say the event ended until what time, I admit it's my fault, sorry to assume everyone will stay until like say 10pm?? & for those who stayed later than that, not a prob (:

12th february is 12 days from my actual day. Whole family was questioning me why the hell do I plan so early? I kept quiet all the time because I thought it was all worth it. Alot of good friends/polymates wasn't able to attend due to army/other factors. But it's okay, because I need to held this event on 12th. I just need to (:

I had a hard time dealing with designerbake. Facing attitude from them, but nvm. Friday I was down with fever again, but I must go get my cake. Even the 2 tier cake you guys seen was shit, I knew, but I had no choice. Everything just had to be done by 12th.

Pamela said b (nickname) text me, but I really didn't receive any text at all.

Well, in the morning, you told me you have to leave early.

I was sad. Really sad. Because I thought you will be there for me the night on this special day. I sounded harsh, but that's because you are important to me. But nvm, in the end you think I am showing my attitude. I apologised & in the end is I don't know how to appreciate people?

& the saddest thing is you don't know you are important to me. Nvm. Really. I did send text to you to say I miss you, but well, no reply.

I know people will whatever me when they see this post. Go ahead. I tried my very best wanting to keep this friendship. I said hi & pretend nothing happen but what I got was. . . . nvm, really.

Who knows behind the close door I stood down there crying? Trice on my birthday itself. Thanks Miao & XJ for giving me tissue all the time. & yes, I am fine.

If you don't want to see me, why come? Since you hated me, why come? You will be happier if you aren't here, but happy dinner-ing with your friends. I know. Sorry to hold you back then.

If you come but I don't have your blessings & wishes, whats the point of this birthday. well, just say me bullshitting here & don't care. If anything I say wrong in this post, just point it out to me (:

In many eyes, I am just spoilt, pampered, take things for granted.

Now I just want to say, let it be. . .

it's my upbringing.

Maybe things will be better if I hold it on 19th (: At least there wont be conflict.

Bon voyage (: Hope you will like the present from me & pamela.

I know you won't want to see me the most.

I am sick today. FML. 2 days MC again ;(( Mum said she is very heartbroken seeing me like that. LOL. asking me to doze abit when I can in class & if we are not given time to eat, just tell lecturer thats crazy & go & eat. she will back me up. LOL. Yea. I have my family & dear friends.

xoxo,

me.

2011-01-28T08:36:00.000-08:00

I was touched when you put on the necklace on for me. No, it's not any car nor apartment, but I really cherished it c:

My 21st birthday present from dad. Heard that it have been designed over & over again to this size. I was touched & moved. Even my name was on it. He intended to give me a surprise but Mum told me already.

It's really gold plated with gold rose colour & he did one gold plated with silver for me too. So I can keep the big one & wear the small one.

It's really meaningful because he really remembered everything I said. Even he is busy w his work & no time for me since young, but it's okay, I understand. I really do. Despite having to settle so many things, he noted down each & every details which I said only once & gave me this.

& WTF he asked me want ballroom for my birthday anot -.-''' or orchard hotel suite. wtf. zzzz. & I replied, I only need a place for gathering & convenient to all my friends will do. It's only another day to me. I just hope everyone can come together & make themselves comfortable.

I think he will be booking for me soon before he fly back next week. MDS is too small ;( I am going crazy now.

Me: Mum, my school got new course on Nutrition.

Mum: Omg, change course now!

Me: CRAZEEEE much.

& I teared abit while Dad is talking to me now.

Dad: You want do transparent braces right?

Me: Yes, but very ex ;(

( I mean, dad is old & he is working so hard to give Mum a goodlife & need to support my studies too. I need to be considerate & not keep wanting this & that )

Dad: Nvm, you decide, I will support you no matter what.

Me: Okay, goodnight. & my tears flowed out after he went to bed*

I am really blessed to have a supportive family. No matter what I do, they will support me. & even Mummy always said I spent their money & always said she won't buy things for me anymore, she will still buy for me.

I am saying all these not to flaunt anything. I just feel touched & feel blissed to be their daughter. Even I said things like WHY give birth to me, I don't even want to be born at all, & made my Mum cried I think. . . But it happen years ago. . .

Well, I love my family (: Need to spend more time w them :D No matter rich/poor, what matter most is staying together & be happy (:

xoxo

2011-01-24T08:12:00.000-08:00

I don't understand why I always meet wierd people:

This is just an example.

2011-01-21T07:02:00.000-08:00

応力。地獄
Currently Listening to First Love (Piano)

有些话没有人能去讲

心情被锁上

WorkLoad

(Everything need to be submitted by Friday)

Nutrition: Pop Quiz on Monday, 3-day Analysis of Diet, Article Review, Test on Tuesday

French: Crossword Puzzle

Gastronomy: Readings, Review, Project, Exam on Friday

Now you know why I won't reply in msn

Now you know why I don't reply to certain msg

Now you know why I can't talk to you people for long

Successfully taken extra allowance. BUT, No time to spend. FML ANOT. Initially tonight going pubbing with Freshkon babes, but, my class ends late.

So tommorow need to get my project done by noon & I shall go Jalan Jalan. Bf bought me 1 peach dress for CNY (: Last week he was out the whole week & I only have school 2hours/day. God damn happy.

So he fetches me to school, wait for me to end class & go shopping (: & of course not forgetting late-night supper. I bought alot of things last week. Mostly Formal Wear for school.

Sunday

CNY shopping w darling. I didn't work on Sunday. Gave up my $200-$300/day. Because he is most important to me & I need to spend time with him C: Choose his shirt, belt & the lastest limited ed. Fred Perry shoe for him. Everything he bought is I choose one. Poor thing I know.

Random Gangster c: Hey, tell me more about the bastard ex.

Me: O.o He is those will save hard, starve abit & spend on his gf (but not on me)

Gangster c: Oh-my-god? (Censored Content*)

Knsssss. You should see his fucking arrogant face when he comparing himself. Because somebody mentioned to me about my ex a couple of days ago. Looks like got kpo my fb.

But bf the best, whenever I don't have enough money he will top up for me && I got membership card for Bugis Street NANA & 707ROOM! So happy :D

Gangster c: OMG, see lah, buy so much, owe me so much money!

Me: STARED* so I need to pay you huh?

Gangster c: HeeHee, no need la.

Hai. I can't see him for the next 3 weeks because he is confine ;( Miss him acting gay on street & he don't care if people is looking at him, just to make me laugh like crazy. Miss him doing funny faces. Now my room is in a mess, I've got no time to tidyyyy. fml. Books on top of luaggage, clothes on walkway. Accessories on my bed. Cotton Pad inside my wardrobe. Wtf right.

Everyday lessons start at 10.30am & ends at 6-7-++.

& homework daily.

I should stfu & work hard.

Need to get the top from ohsofickle & pencil skirt from fep tmr & that's it for CNY. No time to dye hair luhhhhhhhhhhh. Making nails during next weekend. & facial fully booked next week, so how? Maybe I shall sleep on CNY.

Me: Mum! I bought alot of clothes from G2000 you know?

Mum: Oh my god, I am G2000 member!

Me: wtfuck, why never tell me!

Mum: I shall get more formal tops for you.

& yes, we communicate in english. Wierd. My mum love to use ohhh-my-god, I don't know why also.

& sorry joyce, I know I need to meet u up. I want to hug hug you. Ty for want to help out on my birthday. If you want to manage back sweetnpop, just give me a call.

2nd & 3rd batch of rings ARRIVED TODAYYYYY (: Need go post off. collect tmr.

STUDIO SHOOTING ON TUESDAY.

Thanks tcc for helping me take those pictures :D

SWEETNPOP NEXT COLLECTION WILL BE RINGS. Fred Perry Rings is my Favourite. Revamping blog again. To neater layout. Boyfriend bought an ear ring from me for his sister. I don't want to take money from him ;( But he transferred to my account. wtheckkkkk. I hate it.

Chic Magazine emailed me again. Should I consider placing an advert in the mag? Next update by Sunday C: Looking forward.

I need my own style. I know.

,

Vanny

2011-01-14T10:11:00.000-08:00

Tale As long As time . . .

Went city plaza to get my cny dress as it arrive today (:
Went to get my construction boots @ Defu Lane
Went Bugis to get 3 workpants (formal pants) & belt & shirt
Went town to get shoes but no size for me.

School require us to wear formal on daily basis. so. . well. G2000 is my bff. TY bf for buying me dress & gave me a gift. He wrapped it & when I opened it's dolly wink lash number 1 C: OMGGGG. & dolly wink eyeliner (liquid). So touched. It's 2.13am, I am still replying mails as currently got orders for Berry Gyle envelop bag as show at my blogshop.

& I NEED TO WAKE UP TO WORK later.

Regretted.

Because I miss out alot of things. ;((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

&&& BF injected $150 to my blogshop. Damn happyyyyy. Bought nice vintage ringsssssss & damn nice ear ring for blog. Alys opened shop halfway & I rushed in to select my items before it's being chosen by Far east & haji lane ring shop owner. HAPPY HAPPYYYYY

SOMEONE plsss replace me on sunday because I don't want to work. I WANT TO SPEND MY DAYYYYY jalan jalan W BF.

I ammm super dead broke this month due to cny clothes & accessoriesss ;(

Need to do facial again C: Bf bring me to his usual place for facial. Damnnnnnn cosy & comfy. && they did 2 mask for me & did dolly rolling on my face. Because the facial aunty is Aunty Michelle friends since young, so I got so much benefits C: BF waited for me for 2 hours until he fell asleep outside :D Wanna go againnn! If you guys want to try just pm me, we go tgt :D

& I want to dye my hairrrrr. & cut before cny. HOW????

MY MUMMM coming back 3 days before CNYYYYY. WHAT THE HELLLLLLLLL.

I called her yesterday & she ohhh myy god at me & say she miss me. zzzzz.

Me: Die, new school discipline damnnn strict, idk how.
Mum: Oh, damn good, now got somebody discipline my daughter. You can try wear mini skirt & I think next day you don't need to go school.
Me: I lovee you alot, please let me do invisalign. I even put your photo inside my wallet. ehems*
Mum: Oh isit? Ok. Tell your dad about it then.

&&& she god damn happy because I said I love her & she said she miss me. LOL.
Me: So err....I can take extra allowance for buying clothes right?
Mum: OKAY!

WAHHH. I damnnn happy alsooooo. Mum rocks. I can finallly see my MUM SOON C:
Need to work hard tommorow. for money to save :D

I am a super quiet person in school. . .

2011-01-09T07:41:00.000-08:00

Men don't know what they have until they lose her. If a guy lets you go, he didn't know what he wanted, because if he did, he wouldn't have considered it.

A man truly loves you when missing you is his hobby, caring for you is his job, making you happy is his duty, and loving you is his life C:

I am so hungry & migrane hurts badly. fml.

2011-01-07T09:50:00.000-08:00

パステル; Pastel Plane

School started. So far so good I guessed. Most of the coursemates drive & people tend to ask if I drive. I haven't got my liscence & I am not the lucky ones because my dad business isn't in town. fml.

& Parents not buying car for me ;(

Why?

Because Bro & Family owns a car. Parents only stay in town for 1month per year. So they find it unnecessary to get one for me.

Mum: Even we buy, you got ability to afford the petrol & premium & insurance & maintainence fees?

Me: Ok, Fuck no. k, since you not getting me car or apartment for my 21st then forget it, just designed something nice from the company for me. I just want a gold key with silver plating so when I went bankrupt one day I can pawn it for money.

Parents: Laughing* & Mum says education is the best they could give me

Okay, back to topic. Was working for Freshkon Roadshow on Wednesday with Jasmine & Rose. Rose was a mix malay & chinese, how awesome. So she usually work at Geylang roadshow & I heard the sales was very thumbs up* & there is this lady who approached me as she runs an agency & she need girls who can run event from cosmetic to car event.

Me: Er, so what am I suppose to wear on a car event then?

PY Lady: Pencil skirt is fine, all you have to do it promote the car & stand there

Me: *Question marks*

& I gave Clement's number to her. If there is cosmetic event, she told me korean brands, I don't mind if I am given free BB creams because I love bb creams C: As for car event, I don't think is suitable for me.

&&& today, A premium SOCIAL ESCORT company facebook me. Thanks alot. Really. So what if the rates are high & attractive. Nabehchee. Why do people always mistaken as I LOVE MONEY & WILL DO ANYTHING FOR MONEY? Yes, I love money, but I love my virginity more. Why do I have to meet so much wierd people every month. why why why? From work to fb to msn. WHATEVER SHIT, please leaveee me alone.

My daily milo dinosaur everynight before I sleep C:

test next week ;(((( Need to collect goods on Monday or Tuesday & maybe studio on weekends. Gonna do collaboration with decemberflight.livejournal.com as well as taking up fleas at esplanade. Theme for next collection is Pastel Plane.

Turning in now. Need to wake up in 3 hours to go to bf POP.

Marina > Lunch > GM complex>City Plaza (bought cny nude skirt but alteration service sucks ttm until I kb-ed there & talk until my tears want to flow out so going back again) > Dance? (maybe) > Facial at bedok where boyfriend normally do his facial there > dinner > sleep please?

So deprive of sleep. & got alot homework. & test next week. I see pimples. NAISE C:

Need to wait for mum to settle my birthday place for me because chalet is fully book C: Well, present isn't impt, really, what matter most is I can get friends to celebrate with me, I'll be more than happy C:

xoxo,

vannywpimples

Talked to bf last week about how I really feel. Whenever I walked pass certain shops or certain places it reminds me of the past. A past where I strongly believe there is friends forever. Whenever I go cityplaza, I will buy the fishball there & of course there is a reason behind it. Memories stay no matter what. Laughs* Something I can't deny. Jokes we cracked, things we done, we gossiped, we laughed like nobody's business, we curse & swear, hanging out...

How I wished I can turn back the clock, sometimes.

Why must things turn out this way. why? Isit really worth it. Just because of a poor fugly chap. Isit really love? Or love & friendship doesn't co-exist. I don't understand, I really don't. Why must things turn out to be so ugly? & I thought it only affects both of us, but no, it affects 3 of us. I miss the times where we can seat by the riverside quietly & enjoy one another company. But those days are gone & never be back again.

I tried my best. Yet, I won't be able to see our names together again. Pictures will fade slowly, images will fade slowly. . .

2011-01-02T07:36:00.001-08:00

歓迎する 2011

Be careful what you pretend to be because you are what you pretend to be

Wednesday
Went ph with gangster c's friend. Queue until 2am. fuck can. My knees cui ttm. Went home early because I was damn tired maybe after drinking.

Thursday
Went grocery shopping. Gangster c bought me alot of things including bath gel. LOL. so random.

Friday
Bus to amk to get books from artbox C: Not driving because roadblocks everywhere for nye. Met pamela for steamboat. Kiat kiat sick, hope she recover soon C: Saw my ex (sadly I am so blind last time) & my ex best friend holding hands. LOL. Don't give me the arrogant look when you are aheading to take mrt? or drive pickup? LOL.

No offence but I can't stand people full of themselves.

C commented on his centre parting hair? LOL. But well, bf don't even give a damn.

Saturday
xj & joyce called me for a movie at 6.45pm & the movie at 7pm bugis. . thanks man. LOL. I am still at home because just woke up. In the end went prawning & there is this uncle who prawn for years & he teach us all the skill in prawning. We got 20 PRAWNSSSS!!! C:

NAISEEEE.

Sunday
Woke up at 3.30pm & house having party. zzzz. So paiseh walking out of my room because everyone was staring at me. LOL. So I hurried to get out of the house.

Bf & me had came to an agreement. Means I can go clubbing anytime I want, can do anything I want, because he said he has been really bad for the past 1 year. So Joyce, cheers to my jail release & lets club like nobody's business.

Wish for 2011:
Hope everyone around me can be healthy & happy C:

xoxo,
vanny

2010-12-28T04:54:00.000-08:00

If you fall for me, I am not easy to please

I am only gonna break break ya break break ya heart

Thinking of dying this colour for CNY. But I asked Pisces she mentioned that I will look like ah lian if I am having ash brown ;( Was sick today so didn't join UniSim clique to drink.

Need to go for bodycheckup, buy boots at defu lane, buy books at Tp, go collect my card tmr. Got to put my 2 blogshop on hold 1st. Didn't sleep last night ;( So created my 21st birthday event this morning, hope everyone can come.

I need to go BKK but I don't think school will approve. fml.

Me: Eh, Mum, the school don't allow me to go I think, only skip 2 lessons only right

Mum: HAI. Try to appeal if cannot then no choice

I want to go BKK w my Boyfrienddddd ;((((( Plus okay, I am broke, but gangster boy sponcering 80% airticket + food + hotel for me C: We made a pact, meaning if I behave & be good for 6 months, I will have one label from him.

Then if not good?

Gangster c: Got consolation price.

Me: YAY* What what?

Gangster c: Coach Lanyard or Gucci Paper Bag

Me: Might as well don't give -.-

Deleted the "Hurtful remarks" post. Idk gangster c actually demand an apology from my friend. But everything cleared already.

Got this C: Made me poor.

I saw this but don't bear to buy. I need to scrimp & save. Bought 3 ringssss today online :D Initially getting the 4th ribbon pop ring but sold out. IT'S HELLO KITTY RIBBON, the ribbon at my sweetnpop bannerrrrrr ;((((((( 4bucks for one. Far east selling 7.90bucks lor ;((

Long weekends C:

I spend my xmas quietly. Maybe a few years back I love town, love the atmosphere, but this year, I'd like to spend it peacefully doing the things I like. That's enough C: Last year, there were 4 of us, this year, only left me & clement ;( Feel abit sad also. People come & go :D I have long accecpted the fact.

Going Phuture & Zouk tommorow :D

xoxo,

Vanny

2010-12-25T23:30:00.000-08:00

Got the distributorship for korean lens :D
Going out later w Freshkon girls.

xoxo,
sweetnpop

2010-12-23T11:27:00.001-08:00

P.S Maybe selling Japan contact lens (: Still discussing w supplier. soo exciteddddd.

Gonna wake up at 8am. Settle my things ;(

Ugly Gangster Boyfriend: So any movie which is nice?

Me: Yes, there are 3 movies I like to watch which is " My boyfriend is an asshole", "Bastard Boyfriend" as well as " Dickless Boyfriend".

Rmb one year ago I was so high about this sakura pink lens?

I got the sakura brown aka super barbie sweet C:

& I am wearing dollywink lashes & dollywink eyeliner :D

Bought it for $20++, buttt tcc found one more $17 only. felt abit cheatedddd*

15.8mm! I love freshkon lens, but theirs only 14mm ;( sighs* I enjoy working for freshkon actually, but now I can't commit my weekends to them anymore ;( HAI.

er. Not very perfectly photoshop because I am still learning.

Love driving this week because I improve alot. Just that I kept cursing & swearing nowadays & my instructor say I kept talking back to him. LOLLL-edddd. I don't understand why GUY can be so slow in driving & kept signalling the wrong intention & his car was gonna hit the kerb. Made me pissed & I horned him. OK, I am a learner too, but I see his speed I want to cry.

Maybe gg studio for shoots this weekend. else I shall wait for next year when my rings arrive then i go studio. Decemberflight & sweetnpop ROCKS!

xoxo,

vannyyy

Merry x'mas everyone :D Love u people!

2010-12-20T13:05:00.000-08:00

IT'S LIKE 5AM & I am still replying mails & doing my snp ;( I still haven't update mailing list for this 2 days & update snp facebook status. I seriously need to marry a rich husband next time.

Die, & I haven mass send emails to notify people of the updates.

U tell me how.

xoxo,

vanny

2010-12-19T07:21:00.000-08:00

DJ got us falling in love again; 悪い

Don't hold too long to whats never meant to be

sometimes,

we need to set things free before it hurt us badly

日曜日

(sunday)

Woke up at 2++ & have prawn mee @ beach road. Went prawning again c: My prawning skill improve alot! && there is once my prawn fell right back cause I pull up too hard, but it did hooked to the bait. & the women beside me laughed. ccb or what?

土曜日

(saturday)

Pop by cecilia's birthday for 10 minutes & went off. Met Funky Mama (Amelia cousin) for supper & my niece la. She is about the same age as Clement's mummy but she still can go clubbing & pub like nobody's business lor. C was damn shocked cause Amelia is super funky.

&&& IDK MY MUM SUSPECT ME OF GOING CLUBBING

Amelia: You don't think your Mum dk, is just that she close one eye

&&& she helped me cover up say I drink orange juice ONLY

LOLLLL-ed.

Alexis (8 years old niece) got her blackberry phone for her x'mas present. Nowadays kids super fortunate la.

金曜日

(Friday)

Went to FB concert w Nikki @ NYP.

Dear & me c:

Together since year 2 & still counting :D Quite shocked when I knew he was the one who choreograph item 6!

Me: Wahlau, the Joyce they all still wanna go clubbing, ATROCIOUS sia.

Nikki: You going ah?

Me: No la, crazy meh, so late liao.

In the end I went out again at 11.30pm & came back at 6am. fml. But damn enjoy ttm. Miao here better! Fucking broke la. Damn high also! zzzzz. Lets go soon again C: TY larry for sending us home.

Aiya, who never rebellious before you tell me. Live like you are 20! & BE 20!

Called supplier. Gonna bring in Rings during 1st week of January. Got to do research & settle which design & style I will be working on. 2 more days to launching new collection. Gonna sleep at 5am everymorning. BUSYYYY.

I can't sleep at 2am or 3am because every minute every second, so much things is running in my mind. I need to earn money for my bkk. I don't want any sponcership.

MUST HAVE BACKBONE.

Live for passion. "Tired" won't be in my dictionary. I need to be rich.

xoxo,

2010-12-17T02:00:00.000-08:00

Because the truth is, if you love a person, if you truly love them. No matter how bad they hurt you, or how mad they made you, you will always take them back.

(from mun's tumblr, naise)

2010-12-16T09:32:00.000-08:00

強さ ; 雨の日

Went new school to pay money for the necessary items. OMG, idk knife set cost $400++, chef uniform cost $200++, Boots $30++, Books I forgot how much ;( The admin only ask me to bring $180++ but the total amt. have to pay today is $200++ for deposit. Nice fredperry polo guy (idk his name) offered to lend me money. Made new friend too. Kim showed me around TP & introduce me to makan nice nice food!

New school is pretty but small.

Will start school on 3rd Jan BUT my timetable is omg ;( 4 hours lecture.

HAI. It's not easy to make money. I wonder how many accessories I have to sell to buy the knife set ;( I need to get rich. I need to earn loads of money! I need to study hard to get myself out of poverty because that feeling sucks.

Parents support me to switch courses, but Mum is still reluctant to let me be a chef.

Mum: At home you don't even cook, don't even touch a plate now you want to be chef?

Me: YES (:

Mum: HAI, idk la. But next time must cook for me hor?

Me: OK.

This path is tough, but the choice is made by me, no matter how fml is gonna be, no matter how tough it's gonna be, it's still my choice. I can be Food stylist too.

&&& there won't be holiday for the next 2 years!

YESS! NO HOLIDAY AT ALL. Jeans isn't allow for lectures too ;( HOW?

BUSY WEEKENDS AHEAD C:

Hope still can go BKK with other 2 couples.

xoxo,

vanny

2010-12-13T02:28:00.000-08:00

楽しげ

Happy that the sponcered piece from sweetnpop look really nice on Miyake.

Hope that I made alot of improvements compared to last few experiences.

TY everyone for all the support & compliments.

xoxo,

vanessa

2010-12-12T10:35:00.000-08:00

戻る to December ;(

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
I'd go back in time and change it but I can't

Boy book out for 24 hours & yes, he is back in again ;( what to do?

Woke up early today. Because need to go Joo Chiat have lunch w gangster c's parents. They went home while we went town.

How I wish I don't look aneroxic but look normal.

Cause it affect my confident level alot alot. zz.

Went topshop & he bought this dress for me! Happy much. Saw the boho dress hanging on the wall? It's selling at $26++ at xoxoho.lj but I got it only at 4BUCKS at china! So now I know, bs don't get clothes from BKK anymore!

He wanted to get me shoe so that I can change & go hotdate w him in my new dress & shoe. But the nude shoe looks damn wierd on me & don't have my sizes anymore ;( I was the one seating down & looking at him finding the correct sizes for me & choosing design, well, we have agreed that he is the female & I am the male in this relationship!

Saw dollywink booth at watson! GOD DAMN HIGH. He got me this!

Me: OMG, you are the best!

Gangster c: aiya, if angry you will scold me bastard, asshole & fucker ma.

Me: Okay. . . From next month onwards I pay everything myself (: Only this month super broke ttm!

So after town, went to gangster c home to have dinner. C's dad very nice, he know that maybe I don't eat egg with wine sauce, so he cook 1 egg separately for me. How nice, & they ask me da bao soup home again (: Send c off, saw his gay partner & buddies.

Still deciding on going BKK or BKK + K.L. Jio-ing cousin to go with us. His friends going K.L, but maybe I want to stay at BKK longer. Must work super duper hard.

Steamboat @ Parkway! YUMMY & the best!

My favvv dish, fish maw! Because it contain collagen & I love to eat collagen food because I am afraid my skin will sag easily. I can munnnch a whole plate of spicy marinated cold chicken feet because it contains high collagen level :D

Watched movie then home on Saturday night. Wanted to go fetch him next week, but he say NO! wtfffff man. I don't understand. & he don't allow me to send him off next week like today. I don't understanddd also :/

I am in debttttttt ;( I hate december.

Brain dead for my essay. Did 3/4 page & sis ask me edit & edit, so become one paragraph. OMG. STRESSS :(

Wed going out w Pam. Friday going Fb concert w niki. Saturday is cecilia 21st;MAFIA theme, dk what should I wear :(

xoxo,

hopetogetpassdecember

2010-12-09T03:25:00.000-08:00

あなたが逃す; I'll be waiting

对不起

我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起

有天我会找到我的唯一

还微笑祝福你

(Love this song so much)

Had been sleeping for less than 5 hours per day this week :( Think I am rotting at home? NO! Prays superrrssss duperrsss hardsss that I will be able to done my essay well & get into SIT =/

Woke up at 9am for my interview. Was god-damn nervous. Thanks Pammy & Mikitty for calming me down. Ya, so, where is my gangster c? Training hard in his outfied ;( Will be skipping dance tommorow because I have tons of work to do. Need to send Bro my work for him to edit my grammer & vocab.

Because he is English pro & me. . . Now I know why my Mummy always says I made her worried so much, because I am so so so so different from my Bro. He was always the top student in cohort & me. . . can get 2-ish GPA my Mummy already can laugh.

Once, Bro came home with a super depressed face because he got 2nd place in the cohort during his NYP days. I think if I got 2nd place I can asked for more allowances, more trips & more freedom from my Mum =/ At least, my curfew won't be 3am, but maybe 5am or 6am!

Please let me get over next week because by then, I'll be able to sleep peacefully =(

Met Pammy today & she quarrelled with a Aunty. Made me can't stop laughing. I bth so I shout FUCKER at her out loud and Pammy screamed FUCK YOU on her face. OMG much, & in the end she choose to walk away. zzz. But most of the time I am watching them quarrel.

LOL, maybe she scared we might chop her!

Please leh, got balls then stand there, I swear I will take out my video cammy & take down her kubye actions.

So met up with Uni. mates 2 days ago ;( don't even have time to upload those photo. Cynthia, Cynthia & bf, Keith, Kiran & me. Went timbre for dinner & cynthia drive us to Haji lane. They sheesha-ed while I munch my wedges! The wedges is damn cheap & niceee la! Chat so much about relationship (: Catch the last MRT home.

If you are around, you won't allow me to take public home :(

I miss you boy.

xoxo,

VANNY

2010-12-06T10:09:00.000-08:00

気分: love.fly.kisses

Spend quality time with gangster c throughout the weekends. It had been a year, since I know you. One year ago, I am doing my fml attatchment w Karina. Time flies aye. Doing attatchment from Mon-Friday & double date on weekends. How I wish time can slow down at that point of time because everything is just-so-perfect.

Boy went outfield already. 6 days straight, means no contact w him. I just hope he won't get into fight w that particular guy can already. && we are planning to go BKK during his 1 week of POP which is nearing because my greatest wish is to go BKK to shop for pop rings :D Those at Haji lane can cost up to $39 easily. wtheheck huh.

I AM DECIDING TO CUT MY HAIR SHORT!

Cause I've no money to maintain it anymore. I need to go salon everymonth & to cut & do treatment which easily sums up to 3 digit. Not counting rebonding and colouring. Went supercut for treatment & bf pays for it ;( My hair is under the x-tra long category. zzzzz.

I am eating grass this month due to advertorial fees. Nice bro paid my 3 months hp bill for me :D Bf is nice too, helping me pay for almost everything. Didn't made him pay for my topshop dress & ribbon tank even he wanted to get it. I am not those..... yea, you know.

Meet up with my dearest twinnies like finally. Do we look like 2 ah lian? I think abit due to our hair colour. My mum choose light brown for me, should have choose darker colour. zzzz. Because she say light brown nice.

Dad accompany me to do hair & I asked how about blue hair & he said OKAY. OMG.

Mum still ask me buy purple contact lens somemore because look chio. zzzzz. I think my Mum is crazy. Because Little Ryan is going to Primary 1 next January & she bought 3 SCHOOL BAG FOR HIM. We were like wtheck. Ryan only got one shoulder =.= I think ryan is much more fortunate than me because when I was Primary 1, I wore BATA shoe w sailormoon bag. so wtf.

Milk Pink (:

I should not shop this month. SOO BROKE TO THE MAX. I HATE IT. And last week, Aunty Michelle came down to pass me lotus soup after sending boy to book in. SO nice can. & she still wait for me under my block. My x'mas wish is everyone around me can be happy be it you hate me or not :D

xoxo,

VANNY

2010-12-02T08:16:00.000-08:00

Mood: Going Crazy

Results out today. Thanks YunRong for giving me the link else I will spend like dunchhknow how many years finding the correct link. And OK, results was super FML much. Feel like jumping off building. Gonna enroll in the culinery course in SIT already. Prays hard they want me.

Had been soooo busy until I haven even unpack my luaggage pls. Need to settle so much things. Need to take all the photos before advertorial. All this is driving me crazy. So fell sick today. I still can text twinnies non-stop at 6AM gossiping about mr & mrs ehems*

My sweetnpop is halfdone. I revamp it. Love my baby girl so much (:

Btw, will be having 21st birthday on early feb :D I sincerely invite everyone la, but someone who attitude me forget it la, you don't want to come just don't come la. Will try and book either mds or studio M. Just don't understand why all those missy love giving me attitude. Like hello?? I beg your pardon? Do I look like errr slave??

But poly mates quite steady. Haven't ask all, but slowly asking (: Hope all can come and treat it as mini gathering.

Initially meeting twinnies but I am sick. Initially going haircut but zzzz.... & that Jonathan ask want meet anot, he come serangoon, but I LAZY la. Must take 10 minutes travelling time. Very tired. Paiseh.

Dinnered w miao, shipei & jie ying yesterday night. LOVE LOVE much! They volunteered say my birthday will help me blow balloon hor? LOL. shipei will prepare all the food, so nice, thanks in advance. then jie ying will hang up those banner for me. OMG. SO nice. OK, i sense daggers aiming at me*

Kay la, gtg, super busy & tiredddddd. LOVE U PEOPLE.

xoxo,

aunty vanny

2010-11-06T08:36:00.000-07:00

幸せな思い出; 24 hours

& gone.

待っている

24 hours more & I be gone & you be gone. Time flies aye :D It have been a year. Is all this fated? Grabbing me the 1st time you met me, you were drunk & you forgot what happen, leaving me with a super bad impression of you. Everything seems like yesterday (: Holding my hand last xmas, confessing to me after fireworks. . .

You are still writing diary to me. everyday. Writing down everything that happen since day 1. You still pass me heart shape every now & then, with your heart felt words written inside. I am glad that I am your first (:

Thanks for making things happen. I want photoshoot, you give me photoshoot, I want to stay at Re, you book 2 days of Re Pink theme for me. Whatever I want, you will get for me. Things within your limit. Can I have your mont blanc watch too? LOL.

If I sleep on the right side, I will find myself awake on the left side-.- & he finds me wierd waking up at 6am to drink water & falls back to sleep again! His arms was numb, but he didn't wake me up. so stupid.

Love brushing teeth together!

Today he fetches me to dance class (:

Fuck ttm, my make up so cui cause i woke up so late.

SUPER LOVE MY GANGSTER BF! Nvm about me, next time 2am, 3am or 4am hungry I eat maggie mee. I will set alarm for school, I will take public to school & reach school in time. I will drink loads of water so I won't get sick. I will rmb all my account password myself. I will go vanilla pod with my fling if I miss the food there! LOL, just kidding.

Good thing is, No more CHAO Ah lian will see my boyfriend now & then already. Or say random hi to him treating me like dead or transparent! BECAUSE HE will be a botak!!! MUAHAHAHHA.

well, meeting fyp mates for prawning in a few hours time , LIKE FINALLY. wooo, my seondary choir friend randomly talk to me in FB & said I change alot. LOL. Happy (:

But I think I need plastic surgery badly. for my nose!

Talked to Amelia as well, she said actually wanted to bring me to London as she won the topshop sponcership there for the fashion week, but my school starting at that time so nvr bring me ;((((( sad ttm ;((

Well, i gtg, takecare everyone (:

2010-11-01T11:36:00.000-07:00

Tueday; univeralスタジオ

Bought Denim Romper & cupcake tee & shoe today :D Thanks gangster c for ironing my clothes for me cause we are going to universal studio in a few hours time :D Crazy him insist of booking on cc because he is afraid that ticket will be sold out.

Wednesday & Thursday will be staying over at Re Hotel; Pink theme! LOVE IT! Yeap, I will still be meeting friends :D Then Friday gonna rush home & going to singkbox & steamboat. Saturday going pay deposit for December hip-hop class & going to my 1st dancing class. I haven't got my high-cut shoe!

Sunday will be spending quality time w my gangster c. Hope I don't cry. fml. 2 days ago I fell sick, RIGHT AFTER THE GOD DAMN ECONS PAPER after me sleeping for less than 7 hours in 2 days. Gangster c came & help me put cold towel on my body to decrease my body temperature.

Aiya, afterwhich, I kept crying non-stop. fml right. Throughout this 1 year, I realized I am very dependent on him. Or overly dependent on him. What if I am sick? What if it's raining heavily? What if I am hungry during the night? What if I forgot all my account user name & password (he remembers for me), what if I go to public toilet cubicle & the toilet seats are dirty (he would usually help me take tissue & put on top of the seats for me if it's a female cubicle instead of toilet).

Nobody would come fetch me at 6.30pm after class & I have to squeeze my way with a 500 page book into the god-damn bus because he will be in his god-damn tekong. fuck my life. Ya, have to queue for koi myself already. Must take public now & then already. & when I buy new facial product, he will put an instruction note for me on how to use the product. LOL. OMG, he machiam the girl in this relationship.

& Monday, time to fly off for 3 weeks.

K, slap myself hard* I have my friends & alot of things to do.

MY ECONS PAPER IS A FML. I saw larry before my paper. LOL-ed. I didn't manage to do finish my 20 marks question. pek chiek. If result cui I going change course already. 2 days before Econs paper studied at Airport, then Lauren drive us to SMU to study. Nice place to study overnight, but I BTH so I went off halfway. Say 2am or 3am. LOL-ed.

&&& I didn't go for my CCA this week. No time ;( Can't go Esther 21st Birthday, can't meet up with Freshkon girls also. LOL.

Will tag all the photos in fb soon. BEAR W ME! Love you guys!

Bye.

2010-10-27T00:07:00.000-07:00

最も幸せな

想得起的事那天和你傻笑着认识

是最幸福的事

。。。

Had Marketing Paper ytd. It's so FML. I leave one question black for saq because it's based on "Diffusion" so I thought I haven't come across it. BUT, "Diffusion" = "Innovation" & I studied the whole chunk of Innovation. FML much. && the guy beside me kept looking at I, me & my paper because he only wrote 3 lines (I glanced abit) for the whole saq + Essay Questions.

PISSED ;( && My accounting paper, I am only confident to get ard 70 marks. MORE FML. Spent an hour doing my Balance sheet & Income statement & well, cannot balance. Lucky sis taught me how to memorize Cashflow statement (:

So, ytd after school, 5 of us went AMK K-box (: Mel kena samban just because she walked to check how much coupon she should put for the day. WAHLAU. Last paper on Saturday :D Going to study overnight tmr :DD But dk xj wanna go club anot. Sunday maybe going pool w Gangster c's friend.

Gangster boyfriend going in army on the 9th. Yet I booked my flight on the 8th because I rather he send me off. Will be out of town for 3 weeks. The good news is, Dad finally got time to go Taiwan w me. So I gonna fly HK, then China, then back to HK then Taiwan then back home. If you guys want anything, just tell me online. I gonna get Hip-hop clothes & cap.

Initially Mum thought Hip-hop is those clubbing dance, then I on k-pop mtv & show her, & she asked me to learn & teach her. wtf. LOL. Going to get accessories for my blogshop. The sad thing is, I don't have the time to do it when I am schooling :( I may change course after this semester to Business Management. Family quite supportive.

Maybe I will take a break to do my blogshop. Afterall, it's my passion. & my sweetnpop is doing good at that time, with customer database with loads of accessories sold out. Just that, I don't have the time for it.

I had planned out my holiday. Besides going dance class, I will take photos of my accessories & photoshop & do blogskin & sort out everything in excel. Going to bring in pop rings. Maybe 100 or more. Because I am pop ring fetish :D Nice mum even going to help me ask somebody bring to to get stock so I don't have to carry the ugly big bag.

Baby cute had been restocked :D I am so poor now, after spending my money on DW. Thanks c for buying Baby cute for me :D Universal studio next week.

xoxo,

VAN

2010-10-17T02:31:00.000-07:00

愛する
カップル

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是你不知道的事
。。。

I PASSED MY FTT (:

Maybe to you it's nothing, but to me it's something to be happy about :D Gangster c bought dollywink for me VwV HE GOT THE VERY LAST DOLLYWINK IN SINGAPORE FOR ME! It's out of stock at Japan & after he bought it, the website showed outofstock for the whole set of dollywink ;( I can't even get baby cute ;( Mus wait for 2 more weeks!

Bought dollywink eyeliner for myself (: I can draw & lengthen my eye length at my eye tip already!

I super love my pink lens (: Went vanila pod yesterday night, then go changi to see planes.
Initially going to JYJ concert, but gangster c reserved a table already ;(( else I sure go zoom yoochun butt & snap it during concert!

I am currently having exams break. So I must get done this 2 weeks & I will have my holidays (: Gangster c going army already. FML much. Gonna learn hip hop w shipei, do blogshop & go holidays to occupy myself.

Means next time must take bus to school & makan myself already ;( FML much. Steamboat on Friday to celebrate Aunty Michelle birthday. C & me gave her bird nest :D

Gangster c: Mum, next time your birthday I give you Bird nest as present ok?

Aunty Michelle: GOT BIRD FEATHER ALREADY NOT BAD please.

LOL-ed. While he is wrapping the present at my house, I dozed off on the sofa ;(( This week is duper hectic, you cannot imagine my life. Projects + class at 8.30am +.......

Finally done my hair treatment ;( Cut off the tangled part to 5cm. FML.

Postponed the photoshoot because I am too busy. Clothes are sponcered! Happy Happy* && recently I kept meeting wierd wierd people online. idk why.

Wierd A: Hi, are you in need of money? I got a job here.

Me: LOL, do I look poor? & where did you get my msn?

Wierd A: Oh, no offence, I got it from a model website.

Me: So it's what job?

Wierd A: oh, actually no job, just want to give you money & make friend with you

BLOCKED & DELETED*

Knn. Lame excuses only. zzzzzzzzz. Want to box people. So much money write cheque to me la. SAI. He should go geyland instead.

Btw, thanks miao for the help (you know I know). Hearts* I wanna go halloween zoo, but I have not find a date that I am freeee to go.

Chatted w Jonathan a few days ago. It have been a long time since we chat. I laughed for a couple of hours la. I think gangster c jealous, so he went offline & go jogging at 1am. LOL-ed. It's nice catching up with an old friend. Like there are endless topic yet you need to go because you have got morning lessons. This feeling sucks. Same goes for twinnies.

There are things I am unhappy about. bestie know the best, but in the end, I didn't say back not because I am afraid, I am always cool, there's nothing that I dare not say back la. It's just that, I am not the old van, I just leave the matter there because I feel, there's nothing we can talk anymore. No point also. I hate being lied to.

I can accept anything except lying (: Especially when the whole case concerns with monetary issue.

I need to mug hard (:

Bye everyone!

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NAISE (:

2010-10-09T09:59:00.000-07:00

Sick ;( Feeling so miserable now. Receive alot of unknown called today ;( Didn't pick up.

Muscle is aching. FML. Got driving tmr ;( ya, nobody will help me put icey towel on my body already.

2010-10-08T08:34:00.000-07:00

♥ 写真機 ♥
For you is seperation, for me is waiting

Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay

...

Finally Bought a New cammy (: It's a grade below dslr, but way above semi-pro. Was struggling between my Ep-1 and sony dslr because price wise is the same. But in the end got Ep-1 because got fish eye effect. SAVE MONEY ON LENS! HEEHEE.

Thursday

Our clique reached school late because we can't find the correct route. Yay, in the end witty them find the correct route which is taking aye :D

SP & Melissa (:

Me only know how to cam-whore at the back ;((

Bf bought me this sheer black cardi (: Hearts!

Went ubi today to take my trial test & in the end I go wrong timing, missed the timing. FML. Thanks Pammy for accompanying me till the end ;( Saw Miao Miao in school also.

Mum says she will bring me to see skin doctor because my skin is rough. THANKS LOR. My heart really broke can. Is like everyday I spend so much time on skincare she say rough. Today I massaged her leg for her &&& I am awarded with this:

Yippee (:

Next week is a super busy week. Need to rush projects, study for exams & got a photoshoot. Theme " Couple Sunshine". Prays hard my dollywink will reach lor. && hope me & gangster c 's clothes will be sponcered (:

That's for this week!

Bye people (:

Have a nice weekend ahead!